uggs, what the crap am i doing???

i just needed to come in here and "confess" for a minute, don't mind me... i've been extremely upset about reneea and i've been "stress eating". from yesterday afternoon until i went to bed last night i ate an ENTIRE bag of chips! not a single serving size either. we're talking a ginormous FAMILY SIZED bag!!! and i didn't have ANY protein or anything else all day yesterday!!! and today hasn't been ANY better! and i would get sick and put them down for a half hour or so and then i'd start crying for her again and pick that darn bag back up and start chomping away again!!! ergs!!!! somebody needs to put an electronic collar on me or something and shock me every time i reach for something bad! dangit! i'm only 6 pounds away from my goal and i'm stalled out because i'm friggin' "stress eating"! now, what good does THAT do? for me OR for her??

Amanda, I guess you felt you needed a swift kick in the pants? Well, Step AWAY from the chips! You don't really want or need them. And, I didn't really want or need the Doritos I ate today.... Cheddar BBQ Doritos are the DEVIL! And, though I only ate about 2 servings of them, I felt sick for quite a while. The stress is killing us all. There are so many things going on. I know here it is mostly money stresses.... Well, money and teenage girls who make bad choices which we won't discuss. Ugh is all I can say. And, as you said, you are not helping Renee or yourself or anyone else by making yourself miserable and stuffing those chips in your face! Where's the protein? Go make yourself a chicken breast! Or a beef patty! Heck, even a PB&J on whole wheat is better than those danged chips! Let's all keep Renee in our prayers. She is dealing with things that even in our wildest nightmares we wouldn't want to face.... Did you get to go see her Amanda?? Hugs, Lea

thank you lea. and yes, a swift kick in the rear was EXACTLY what i needed. i hate to admit it but i think my stress eating in this situation is kind of because i don't want to believe that something like this can happen. and with it being someone who's so close-by it kind of makes it more "real" if that makes any sense. so what did i do yesterday? even after posting this and even after buying the green tea that she requested i went home and stuffed MORE chips down my throat and then passed out from the whole dumping garbage. (i swear, sometimes it's worse than a hangover!!) but here it is, 6:30am and i'm wide awake. it's a new day and i'm making a fresh start. i'm going to pop open a 50 gram slam and sort of do a "protein detox" for a couple of days and maybe that'll curb these stupid carb cravings. i have to take my gf to work in an hour and a half so i'm going to jump in the shower in a minute and go visit with renee after i drop my gf off. (hopefully she won't be mad about me being a no show last night, lol.)

me too, not a bag of chips but just carb crunching.. my new thing was club crackers and cheese ina can, what the hell? I've thrown all of it away.. I'm making turkey baked spahgetti tonight with barilla pasta (first time) and some lowfat cheese on top.. so we'll see should be very high in protein between turkey and the pasta cheese, i've had no pasta in a year.. I'm eating some soy crisps as we speak Snyders makes them, they're soooooooo good and good for you!!!I'll be right back what's going on with Renae? I've been so out of touch lateley , remember to take care of you