I am having a down moment

Hey how is everyone doing. For thoes having had surgery this week, or having surgery this week Congrats to you. May God bless you and your family. May he guide the surgeons hands, and keep him focused on you. May you also be blessed with the beginning of a new life. One that I hope you live to the fullest. Even though I have not written individual posts for everyone having surgery this week all of you have been on my mind, and in my thoughts. Ya, know holidays are always a bad time of the year for me. As both my mother and father are passed away. My son lives with his father and this year on top of that my daughter will be with her father for Christmas. It bothers me so much to know that when she wakes on Christmas morning, I will not be able to see her bright shinny face. On the other hand she has been really excited about going to her dads. She has a new baby brother there, which makes her a big sister. Sorry, Dont know why I am rambling on, just having a really big down moment. Thanks everyone for all the support I have gotten. Melissa

I'm with you Melissa, my holiday will be spent alone, me and my 3 dogs. I didn't even put up any decorations this year. Usually I'm just glad when it's over. One bright spot is the commute to work from here until New Years is very light and non-stressful. Huggers and a kiss on the cheek, Derrick

Derrick, I did not put a tree up either. My daughter is going to be with her dad, and Santa is going there this year. I only put a tree up for her in the first place. Its just hard to not be with her. Especially with my surgery coming up next Tuesday. I am just afraid (and yeah I know slight chance) that I will never get to see her again. Her dad is five hours away. But anyway Thank you so much, Melissa

Melissa, It can be the most difficult time for people. Hang in there and find something to do to pamper yourself a morning of self beautification (as Heath likes to call it), sleep in and take care of you until your daughter comes home. It will be over in no time. Chip

Chip, I dont know the meaning of the word pamper. My plains for Christmas day are to wake up, take my meds get some liquids and then go back to bed. I just want to sleep that day away. Now, wether or not I will get to do that is another question. Melissa

I am sorry you are so down. The holiday season can be a bad time for anyone. We have not decorated or anything this year because of my surgery. I am trying to be positive, but it is hard. I am sure that it is hard for you to think about Christmas without your daughter being home, but you can always celebrate it a little early. Make sure to have at least a special moment with her. Hold her tight and tell her that her mommy loves her. It will all be ok. Take care Erin

Erin, Today when I got in the shower I started to cry so hard. I wasnt sure why I was crying at first, then it dawned on me that tonight may very well be the last night I spend with her. She is leaving in the morning to go to her dad's and will not be home until after my surgery. So, if things take a turn for the bad, tonight is it. On the brighter side if things work out well (and I am very confident they will) she and I will have a whole new life together. I hope you have a good holiday, Melissa

Hello all -- just think, there are those out there who would love to be in our places, there are still Katrina children lost and separated from their families-- I'm not keen on the holidays either, however, we all still have a lot for which to be thankful. Ride out the duldrums and get out among people. Go someplace you've never been. Take your dogs to a doggie Christmas party or plan one. There are probably a lot of single GLBT people out in your community with pets that may not have any place to go. And there are those that enjoy being alone for Christmas -- a part of me does and doesn't -- the part that enjoys it is the part that gets to watch football all day long -- I live in MD and my family lives in Louisiana -- therefore, that is the part I don't enjoy --having not been with them for almost 8 Christmas --even though I speak with them on a regular basis. Even if Christmas is only 3 days away -- decorate a tree even it it's only a foot tall. God desires us to enjoy ourselves. Whether you've had the surgery or not, celebrate yourself for the decision you've made in changing your life for the better. Be ready to support others --whether or not they have supported you -- do a GREAT THING this Christmas season --you may think it small, however, God will think it GREAT. Be proud, be positive, be all that you and God desire you to be. Peace and Much Love, Rev. NaDine (Nope, I haven't had the surgery yet, have started the journey though).

NaDine, Thank you so much. I have the biggest smile on my face. Melissa

Melissa, I'm glad you are smiling. I used to do standup comedy too --I was ordained way later. However, sometimes my comedy does come out in a sermon. Hopefully when my work schedule changes, I'll be able to do some open mic nights someplace. Be on the look out. NaDine