Spurts of Paranoia

Ok so on the liquid diet 3rd day and been having flashes of paranoia...

What if something goes wrong..
What if I need to eat more calories....
What if this damn thing doesnt work......
Is it going to be worth it......

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G

Do I ever remmmber those thoughts as I followed my liquid diet. Was sure I was not going to wake up from the anesthesia! When it came right down to it, the biggest doubt I had was about ME. I had let myself down so many times before with failed diets, a sense of being weak and a failure etc... The surgery is the beginning of a process and your head is not going anywhere! It is what I like about this forum... having a place to bring your head ( doubts,self recriminations as well as victories and new ways of seeing yourself) to get some support from others. I remind myself to try to stay out of my own head as much as I can. It's a bad neighborhood and you only get mugged in there!

Hang in there G and keep reaching out. You are doing it just right!

I am a freak, I remember sitting in the hospital right after surgery all of those questions?   This is a great opportunity for you to change your life for the best!!  Try to toss the fears away and be excited for Summer is comming and out and about you will be!!

Jill is right!!  Keep posting and people on this board will help you through it!

Gman, I experienced those exact feelings. I thought i would be one of the only people this surgery didn't work for. I grew up all my life obese and couldn't fathom the thought of myself skinny. Now its happening and i have absolutely have NO regrets at all, as long as you follow your doctors orders you are going to come out of this much stronger. I also thought i would be one of the people who died on the table or in the hospital, guess what I'm still here and ticking lol! You will do great like others on OH, Keep your head up, don't worry, and say goodbye to the old you. Good luck to you on your journey and feel free to post as often as needed, even if you think your question or concern is dumb, we are here to support and educate each other. Your surgery will be here before you know it. have a great day.

I would agree with all of the posters so far. I believe that the mind begins to play these games with us as a way to protect us from the unknown; and it's the way our addiction tries to grasp a stronger hold over the intelligent side of the mind. If the addiction manages to convince us that we cannot make it through this life-changing surgery, then the addiction wins again. Strengthen the intelligent side of yourself with positive thoughts and support from this board and from others. Intelligently, you know that this surgery is the right thing, make a real effort to stay focused on that and don't let your food addiction get the best of you.

In re-reading this, I'm not certain how well I have stated it. But, think about the old cartoons where the angel sat on one shoulder whispering encouragement and the devil sat on the other shoulder trying to sabotage. The intelligent side of our mind knows the angel is right, but if the devil gets too loud, it is difficult to make the right decision.

Good luck. You will do fine.

Thanks Ken,

You put it perfectly....

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G