Drinking - big time!

In may I got a ssaulted and mugged. It shook me up a lot! And In order to cope I got some meds - but I did not feel safe and had trouble sleeping. I started taking a glass of wine and in a few weeks I was drinking more and more - 2-3 drinks from the moment I got up in the morning until now - that I drink 2 bottles of pure rum/gin every day in order to be able to go outside and work. (Thank God I do not need to drive!). And actually is able to work some in that state - my tolerance for alcohol is enormous!  - I knew this had become a huge problem and I tried to quit - but the withdrawal was so bad that I only lasted max 14 hours before buying some more ...
Tomorrow I am going to an in house Alchohol Detox center for 7 days to get help to break this self destructive habit. Before I had probably overeaten and gained 20 pounds in 2 month in order to cope - but this time I did not have that option (after RNY gastric bypass). I do feel a bit ashamed that this could happen to me - (That I allowed it to happen to me - no one forced me to drink - is is my responsibility and I own it - just wished I could have coped better) . The person assaulting me lives close by and we are waiting for the case to court - but it is hard to feel safe - until he is locked up adn even then i fear retribution from such a psychopath when he gets released.
So no more drinking Leaving Las Vegas Style - but cold turkey since 11 PM last night (it is 8.37 Am) and I am waiting packing some stuff before a friend comes and drives me to the Detox center. I am a bit scared - but I will sooo overcome this too.
All the drinking stopped the weight loss - no wonder considering I mixed the liqueer with sugar sodas ...and alcohol have a lot of calories. But worse - I did not bother taking my supplements, excercising (I was too drunk -passed out ) and only ate some fiber crackers ...

Hey Niller, 

No one said the journey would be easy. I'm sorry about what happened to you but you have done the most important thing, and that is to recognize you have a problem. I am very happy that you are seeking help and wish you all the best in your recovery. Life can throw some pretty hard blows when you least expect it and it's hard to know how we will react until we are there.

I hope you get the needed support to help you on this journey and find different and healthy ways to cope with your anxiety and fear.

You can do this!!! I know you can!!!

Heads up!!! I am rooting for you. 

Tons of hugs.

Diana

Niller:

Also so sad to hear about the mugging and subsequent alcohol dependency.  Unfortunately, alcohol and other drug dependencies are not uncommon after WLS.  Strongly consider AA if you find yourself picking another drink.

Best wishes!

Niller
You are not alone - read up on transfer addictions....so many WLS patients becoming alcoholics in a heartbeat. You are not a failure, you can overcome this with help.
Blessings,
:Danni

Like Danni said, there are transfer addictions with a lot of WLS patients. Congrats on realizing you have a problem and getting help. I really think that is the biggest and hardest step with anything. Good luck with all of this and know we are here for you.

Eh..you are not alone.  Sorry about the mugging incident...it will take time.  I too had a drinking problem.  I was drinking almost straight vodka til the time I got home from wor****il I would pass out where ever I landed.  Sober since December 29, 2009.  YOu are not alone...just remember that and congrats on seeking help!

I'm so sorry this happened to you. :(  Drinking to make it go away doesn't work and you know that, and you're making the right choice in going for help. Hang in there. Please go back to your supplements, keep yourself healthy. *hugs*

I am sorry to hear about your assault Niller. We do tend to switch up on our addictions ( well said Danni) when we are cut off or cut ourselves off from something. You are a brave guy to recognize it, reach out for help and then name it publically to hold yourslef accountable to others. Secrets keep us sick. Just like with over eating. Rock on brave man. Let us know how you are doing.

Hugs to you as you face this huge challenge and the future ones. I know its a cliche but... one minute, one hour, one day at a time.

Thank you for your kind words of love and support. I got home from the detox center yesterday and do feel a little tired still from the detox meds. But I sobered up and decided to take antabuse for 6 month in order to prevent me from drinking alcohol.
I was ashamed that  I - Me  - had to go to such a place ... but I realized that if this can happen to me it can happen to everybody! At least I am a proud of myself that I did something about the problem - quickly! It was a great in house detox facility and the staff was very professional, helpful and kind. (One thing that surprised me was meeting another man - he got divorced after WLS/RNY and started to drink ... so I think there are more people who transfer addictions after WLS since overeating is much harder ...).

Yes - sometimes bad things happens to us - and I coped badly - but I feel better now and I trying out some new ways to cope with anxiety.

"""I ran 8 minuttes today"""" I can run!  - it was about time I put on those running shoes and got my ass in gear - and cut the excuses - and honour the promises I made myself to become healthier. I will just take it slowly - but jogging was one of the things I had looked forward too - and I will stick to it - since it will probably help me better to cope with anxiety - I have procrastinated - and I am taking my supplements again. I will attend a self defense/Martial arts class this fall - if running away is not going to be an option - I refuse to be scared to go out.

I hope you are doing well - hugs from me.