2010 is looking good.

Happy New Year to all. I'm excited about 2010 and definitely feel positive things are happening.

I am now 2 months in to my 6 month pre-surgical diet. I've dropped about 9 pounds with just some minor adjustments so far. I have a dietician who is putting together a food plan for me for the next 4 months. I'd like to lose 25lbs additional pre-surgery - a reasonable goal.

I've had some recent successes that I am excited about that I wanted to share. I have been seeing a therapist who specializes in eating disorders for the last 6 months and I have made excellent progress. I have eliminated my emotional/anxiety driven binges completely. I am making conscious food choices (versus blinding stuffing my face).  And I have felt my stomach growl many times now. This sounds crazy but the first time I have felt that empty grumble feeling, I was like, WHAT the hell was that?! And then I just started laughing out loud. Unfortunately this happened during a meeting at work. Everyone thought I was nuts.

For Christmas, my partner and I and some of our family went on a cruise. I've been on a lot of cruises and for me, there were typically an eating orgy. Breakfast, Second Breakfast, Lunch, Afternoon "snack" of Johnny Rockets, Dinner, Late night snack, and multiple trips to the ice cream machine. This time, a totally different experience - again where I was in control - eating reasonable portions, healthier choices, and never once feeling deprived. I came back from the cruise and I had not gained even one pound! Awesome! My man gained 7, and I did gloat a little. ;)

I love reading everyones posts, the successes and the challenges. If I 've learned one thing from this board, its if you want to get out of your relationship - get WLS! It's shocking. Told my partner to get some boxes. He might need to pack soon.

Seriously, I feel for everyone who is trying to better themselves and losing his/her companion and support at the same time. I'm here if someone needs some comfort or just a ***** session.