Why Am I Not Happy?

So I have done well with my surgery am down to 178lbs from 292lbs and I am looking great and feeling much better. However, for the last month I have had the WORST mood swings. There is nothing abnormal going on in my life, working hard, going to school, and am in a great relationship. Of course money issues are always a problem, there is just never quite enough. I love my girlfriend with all my heart and she has been my biggest supporter! I feel depressed though. I have no idea why. I really have no reason to be depressed I just am. I have been extremely snappy with my gf and it has been tough the last month between us. I know in every relationship you get irritated with little things they do sometimes but it just seems like every little thing she does drives me crazy. And this has spilled over into every other area of my life. I just get irritated so fast! I think Im going crazy haha. I have no reason not to be thrilled I guess I am just having a hard time dealing with stress without food. Has anyone else had any issues with this? I dont want to lose my wonderful girlfriend over this.

Estrogen is stored in fat cells.  As your body metabolizes the fat, estrogen is releases into the blood stream, where it is free to wreak havoc on your emotions.  Think of it as having PMS on steroids.  Maybe some antidepressants are in order, until things settle down.

I would love to tell you it gets better but in my case it hasn't! Right now I'm in an excellent mood ...tomorrow might be another story! In the beginning when the weight was falling right off I was feeling super confident, enjoying all of the compliments, and now I just feel blah most days. I really dislike my body. And I'm so freakin' sick of people telling my "it's a trade off" or "would you rather be fat again?". Ummm NO I don't want to be fat again. BUT I do want to love how I look and I don't. I don't know if it's a case of hormones out of whack or if it's just ME! Whatever the case is ...I should be VERY happy. And I am ...for the most part ...but there is still that side of me that is like eh whatever.

At least I know I am not alone haha. I will have to mention it to my dr. at my next visit. I feel ungrateful in a way. I love how I look with clothes on... haha. I also was put on depo shot recently to help with my horrible period cramps. Before surgery I was very irregular and now I guess I have gotten regulated and am suffering horrible cramps. So I dont know if the hormones in the depo have anything to do with it but if so I would almost rather have a few painful days of cramping than act like a raging crazy lady haha.

 Thanks for your responses! I guess I am just gonna have up and down days sometimes.

I am experiencing this as well. Sometimes my gf thinks I'm crazy. I blamed her the other day for trying to sabbatoge my weight loss because she offered me wine. I realized all I had to say was no thanks. Anyway, I feel your pain and I hope this gets better for the both of us.

Me too girl. I guess us crazies just gotta stick together haha. They tell you how emotionally difficult it is when you get the surgery but they really have NO idea  Hope you all have a Merry Christmas!

I think the changing body, changing body image, hormones, people treating you differently, mind games....let's see, anything else?

It is a roller coaster ride and the emotions sometimes are all over the place....You do feel crazy....at times I think I was crazy...And oh yeah, when you can't numb out with food....everything is felt more!! This is life off of drugs (carbs,food, mindless eating).....it does stabilize. It helps to work out and breathe, and meditate....at least they all did help me...best to you!!

deb366

So true Deb. I have been thinking about starting a group here for folks who are post WLS for just the things the girls are desribing above. If we could handle life on its own terms without self medicating with food, we would have been doing it al along. Suddenly the "crutch" is gone and here we are getting hit with our "stuff" without a defense. AS much as I day dream about being thin, fit and attractive, it really does make me uncomfortabe when poeple notice me that way. AS I lose weight I am awake and alive and the trade off is that I FEEL more intensely than before. Feeling is a whole kettle of fish that I simultaneously long for and am imtimidated by. I guess struggling with this is better than being numb and cut off. Hang in there women!! Glad we have each other to lean on as we ride this roller coaster together!

I too am going through the "Mind Games"  I think it's a given with this experience.   I tell myself, "  I chose this and I will have to deal with it. "  As long as you are happy with what you are doing and feel good you can cope.  Hang in there.  Talk to you physician or if you have a counselor talk to them.  Keep posting.  We're here for you!

You just described me!  I've been so grouchy with my husband and kids.  I'm also depressed.