Many Many Changes - Good and Bad

Hey guys

It's been a little while since I last posted. i still read the posts here and find so much solace knowing that i can relate to so many people an what they're going through on this journey. 

I'm a little over 3 months out and am down 60lbs.  I'm finding a whole new me emerging (well perhaps it was the old me unable to breathe just re-emerging - can't really remember what i felt like that long ago).

I still think that the surgery was the best thing that I ever did.  My whole outlook on life has altered so dramatically, I'm more confident around people and I find that I'm accepting of a whole lot less crap from anyone.  I'm at the gym every day (exchanging one addiction for another I suppose) and am totally obsessed with spinning class!!  I love it and my legs are rock-hard!

There have been a few casualties along the way.  My relationship with my partner of 5 years has just ended and I'm feeling like total crap at the moment.  I've been through much soul searching about this and have come to realize that I've gone through such a profound change in my life that it made me look at things that i was content to live with before my surgery in a totally different light. We're staying friendly, and once I managed to make him realize that it was me who needed to fly free on my own for a while and nothing that he'd done wrong we agreed that it was probably for the best.

I'm going through a total renaissance  at the moment, enjoying most of it, hating some but accepting that i need to go through this experience to be able to grow and find the real ME!  It has been quite cathartic, more so than I thought.  I feel ready to tackle these new challenges, whatever they may be.

Bring it on! 

 

Great post about thoughts and feelings!  I am finding that I have a new Mantra , "Ann you have permission to be and become the healthy woman you deserve to be!"  I am blessed with a wonderful partner that is there for me 100%, but allowing myself to lose the weight has to be for me!

Good luck on your journey!

Great job on the weight loss so far. 60 lbs in 3 months is awesome.

Sorry to hear about your relationship - sounds like you have come to terms with it.

I noticed you are also in Fort Lauderdale. I am in Oakland Park.

Where do you go spinning? I used to do a lot of spinning and would like to get back into it.

Keep up the good work!

Kevin

Hi Kevin

I go to LA fitness - either the one on US1 in Ft lauderdale or the one out west on University and Oakland Pk.  Let me know if you fancy joining me... 

What time of day do you take spinning?

I go to Ballys on Commercial usually around 6am but would be open to checking out LA Fitness.

Have you ever taken Spinning at Ballys?

No, actually never been a member of Bally's.

 

i cannot get my ass our of bed for the 5.45 am class but tend to hit either the 8.30am or the later afternoon / evening classes where i can fit them into my schedule.

 

If i could get a decent priced membership to Bally I might be interested in joining. 

Hello poppet -

Keep your chin up and keep inspiring your friends out West.
Appointment number two is done for me and things are looking good

Mikey ( aka P. S. )

Sending you some wicked good vibes!! 

I'm sorry for the pain ending your relationship has caused. But happy for you also that you have been able to sieze control of what's best for you.

It's something I have been working with my therapist on. One of my fears is by losing weight, will it be some cataylst that will cause my relationship to end. I don't have any real answers to that question except to fall back on - do what's best for me. Hard to develop that kind of confidence.