9 month Good vs Bad list
Hi everyone -
Work ate my life, so I hardly have time to post anymore. It's sad, really, because I really like keeping up with all of you on here.
I'm sort of in a state of disbelief today. I've been stuck on a plateau for about 5 weeks, unable to cross the 330 pound mark. Today I weighed in at 326. Totally wierd, especially when I consider that I broke down and had a couple of handfulls of M&Ms over the weekend, and a small pile of ritz crackers. I just got weak, and was honestly a little depressed over my plateau.
Go figure.
I thought I'd bullet point out the goods and the bads in my life lately, relating to the surgery to work through some stuff and process where I am. I thought this might be useful to people considering WLS.
THE GOOD:
* Since the RNY surgery in November I've lost 145 pounds.
* Since January of last year, my first official weight loss weigh in at the surgeon's office, I've lost a total of 215 pounds.
* I started wearing 5x to 6x shirts, and am now wearing 2x to 3x. Most of my 3x shirts are like tents on me, though. I feel safer under baggy clothes, still, and feel very exposed and naked wearing 2x shirts.
* My waist has gone from a 60 to 62 to a 46 to 48. I should note, though, that people tell me I'm wearing pants that are too big for me.
* My largest size ever was 541 pounds. Today I weight 326. The surgeon's office can't decide what my weight goal should be, but place it at between 250 and 280. That puts me 45 to 75 pounds away from my goal - I never thought I'd be that close.
* I now wear smaller clothes than I did in highschool.
* I'm mentoring people looking into WLS at the hospital where I had it done as part of my orientation program.
* Far more confident in my body and my physical capabilities. I hiked to the top of the hollywood hills the other day. On a whim. That's pretty cool.
* I can do over 45 minutes of cardio in the gym without dying.
* It takes me about 8 minutes of cardio before my body actually notices I'm working out, now. That's pretty cool.
* I have muscles from lifting weight 2 or 3 times a week. People are starting to notice them, too, so I guess they're actually visible. Being fat, whenever I lifted weights before I was the only one who could notice the differences.
* People are hitting on me more, and not just a select few who like fat guys and are only interested in me as a fetish object.
THE BAD:
* I nearly cried the other day when I lost an earring I've worn non-stop for the past 10 years. It was the only part of my face I recognized every morning.
* I'm stuck in "The Greys", a mental place where I'm sort of emotionally numb. There have been so many changes over the past year that I started sort of damping down all my feelings, good and bad. Which kind of sucks, because I'm sort of in the kick-ass, everything is awesome phase of the process.
* I'm broke. Between paying for new clothes, personal trainers, gym memberships and nutritional supplements, money is stretched awful thin right now. On the flip side, my food expenses are teeny, though they used to be my biggest monthly expense aside from rent.
* Have no confidence in the dating side of things. I knew what my old body was, and how to wear it to my best advantage. I don't have that sort of understanding of my new body, even though people seem to like it.
* I panic when people hit on me. I don't know how to react.
Anyone else want to add your own good and bads to the list? Let's be totally honest, here.
Work ate my life, so I hardly have time to post anymore. It's sad, really, because I really like keeping up with all of you on here.
I'm sort of in a state of disbelief today. I've been stuck on a plateau for about 5 weeks, unable to cross the 330 pound mark. Today I weighed in at 326. Totally wierd, especially when I consider that I broke down and had a couple of handfulls of M&Ms over the weekend, and a small pile of ritz crackers. I just got weak, and was honestly a little depressed over my plateau.
Go figure.
I thought I'd bullet point out the goods and the bads in my life lately, relating to the surgery to work through some stuff and process where I am. I thought this might be useful to people considering WLS.
THE GOOD:
* Since the RNY surgery in November I've lost 145 pounds.
* Since January of last year, my first official weight loss weigh in at the surgeon's office, I've lost a total of 215 pounds.
* I started wearing 5x to 6x shirts, and am now wearing 2x to 3x. Most of my 3x shirts are like tents on me, though. I feel safer under baggy clothes, still, and feel very exposed and naked wearing 2x shirts.
* My waist has gone from a 60 to 62 to a 46 to 48. I should note, though, that people tell me I'm wearing pants that are too big for me.
* My largest size ever was 541 pounds. Today I weight 326. The surgeon's office can't decide what my weight goal should be, but place it at between 250 and 280. That puts me 45 to 75 pounds away from my goal - I never thought I'd be that close.
* I now wear smaller clothes than I did in highschool.
* I'm mentoring people looking into WLS at the hospital where I had it done as part of my orientation program.
* Far more confident in my body and my physical capabilities. I hiked to the top of the hollywood hills the other day. On a whim. That's pretty cool.
* I can do over 45 minutes of cardio in the gym without dying.
* It takes me about 8 minutes of cardio before my body actually notices I'm working out, now. That's pretty cool.
* I have muscles from lifting weight 2 or 3 times a week. People are starting to notice them, too, so I guess they're actually visible. Being fat, whenever I lifted weights before I was the only one who could notice the differences.
* People are hitting on me more, and not just a select few who like fat guys and are only interested in me as a fetish object.
THE BAD:
* I nearly cried the other day when I lost an earring I've worn non-stop for the past 10 years. It was the only part of my face I recognized every morning.
* I'm stuck in "The Greys", a mental place where I'm sort of emotionally numb. There have been so many changes over the past year that I started sort of damping down all my feelings, good and bad. Which kind of sucks, because I'm sort of in the kick-ass, everything is awesome phase of the process.
* I'm broke. Between paying for new clothes, personal trainers, gym memberships and nutritional supplements, money is stretched awful thin right now. On the flip side, my food expenses are teeny, though they used to be my biggest monthly expense aside from rent.
* Have no confidence in the dating side of things. I knew what my old body was, and how to wear it to my best advantage. I don't have that sort of understanding of my new body, even though people seem to like it.
* I panic when people hit on me. I don't know how to react.
Anyone else want to add your own good and bads to the list? Let's be totally honest, here.
Thespen! Thanks for pointing out some of the good and bads! I'm expecting to have surgery in November/December after I get done with the bariatric class. This helps me to know what to look forward to and what to watch out for...Thank You!
CHRISTY <3
Heaviest Weight:417 / Surgery Weight:363 / Current Weight:248
Heaviest Weight:417 / Surgery Weight:363 / Current Weight:248
Thanks for starting a great thread. I miss you on here!
Goods:
1) I am wearing size 14-16 pants (only because of the pannus) and L-XL shirts, down from tight 4XL.
2) I have now lost half of my body weight, about 160 lbs. I was never really given a goal so I made one up based on BMI. It will be interesting to see what gets said at my one-year appointment next month.
3) I can walk and talk, without horrid sweating or gasping now.
4) No more CPAP
5) My sleep cycle has evened out - no more waking up at 4am everyday.
6) Off all meds except vitamins
7) Trying to wear girlie cloths and shoes
8) Like Thespen, more confident in my bodies capability. I can get in and out of a kayak, easily hike on rocks without feeling unsteady and remain balanced despite moving faster.
9) I cleaned the house for half the day on Sunday without utterly hating it.
Bads:
1) Tired of being asked if I have more energy - I either can't remember or can't tell.
2) Miss being able to take NSAIDS; one hip still hurts.
3) Old habits slip back easily but at least I am still keeping track on Calorie King
4) Cravings are back
5) Less easily aroused sexually . . . weird and bothersome
6) I too have not regained the super highs and lows of before surgery. Maybe, they were hormone driven and this is more "real"?
7) Still have headaches almost every morning
Goods:
1) I am wearing size 14-16 pants (only because of the pannus) and L-XL shirts, down from tight 4XL.
2) I have now lost half of my body weight, about 160 lbs. I was never really given a goal so I made one up based on BMI. It will be interesting to see what gets said at my one-year appointment next month.
3) I can walk and talk, without horrid sweating or gasping now.
4) No more CPAP
5) My sleep cycle has evened out - no more waking up at 4am everyday.
6) Off all meds except vitamins
7) Trying to wear girlie cloths and shoes
8) Like Thespen, more confident in my bodies capability. I can get in and out of a kayak, easily hike on rocks without feeling unsteady and remain balanced despite moving faster.
9) I cleaned the house for half the day on Sunday without utterly hating it.
Bads:
1) Tired of being asked if I have more energy - I either can't remember or can't tell.
2) Miss being able to take NSAIDS; one hip still hurts.
3) Old habits slip back easily but at least I am still keeping track on Calorie King
4) Cravings are back
5) Less easily aroused sexually . . . weird and bothersome
6) I too have not regained the super highs and lows of before surgery. Maybe, they were hormone driven and this is more "real"?
7) Still have headaches almost every morning
Thought of three more bad . . .
My butt hurts all the time.
My skin and boobs get caught on or under other body parts . . . .
I am cold all the time at work.
And a few more good . . .
I don't feel deprived of any favorite food, just portion controlled.
I fit in car seats, booths, airplane seats and between tables now.
I don't hate having my picture taken.
My butt hurts all the time.
My skin and boobs get caught on or under other body parts . . . .
I am cold all the time at work.
And a few more good . . .
I don't feel deprived of any favorite food, just portion controlled.
I fit in car seats, booths, airplane seats and between tables now.
I don't hate having my picture taken.
Hi Thespen,
always good to see you here. I just came up on 1 month post surgery today. Thanks for all your support pre and post surgery. It is interesting that you lost the earing, and that it was the only thing recognizable on your face. Maybe you were meant to lose it so you can really look at who you are now. just a thought...hmmmmm
Good things:
More energy
was wearing 46-48 now 42-44
lost 39 lbs
Can stand up for myself and not take on other people's shame, guilt or responsibilites
love walking my dogs
work ismuch more tolerable
wake up early and take naps..
having a little bit of a libido back
off diabetes meds, blood sugar stablized at 90-100
going off BP med, pressure is 109/62
Not so good things:
gas
bad breath
not having food to stuff my feelings
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