Getting ready for second appointment with surgeon
So, since I was last here, I have been bled, ultrasounded, psycho-analyized, supported and oriented. I've given up Diet Pepsi, cut my caffeine by 2/3 and there is no pasta or sugar left in my house. I do, however, have a box full of protein powder samples, lots of things labeled "sugar free, fat free" and a cookbook that has so far yielded *nothing* I will ever make again. I have charts, support letters, test results and...an appointment with the surgeon.
I am told that if I have done everything right and the tests they took do not reveal any new issues, I can be given a surgery date. And *then* they submit the megilla to the insurance company.
I have been very active in discussing the current health care debate and as I finish up this first step, fully knowing I can be refused for any reason or no reason, it seems so...personal.
And I don't know what I'll do if they tell me I need to do 6 months of support groups and weigh-ins. I hate that sh*t, so much. Hated the two I went to. And without the imminence of preparing for surgery, I just know I will admit back into my life all the things they say are so wrong for me. (I miss soda so much, it's almost funny.) I mean - if I could stick to a diet and exercise program on my own for 6 months, I would have done so in the past!
I'm trying not to borrow trouble and anticipate the worst on Thursday. But I just needed to get this out.
I am told that if I have done everything right and the tests they took do not reveal any new issues, I can be given a surgery date. And *then* they submit the megilla to the insurance company.
I have been very active in discussing the current health care debate and as I finish up this first step, fully knowing I can be refused for any reason or no reason, it seems so...personal.
And I don't know what I'll do if they tell me I need to do 6 months of support groups and weigh-ins. I hate that sh*t, so much. Hated the two I went to. And without the imminence of preparing for surgery, I just know I will admit back into my life all the things they say are so wrong for me. (I miss soda so much, it's almost funny.) I mean - if I could stick to a diet and exercise program on my own for 6 months, I would have done so in the past!
I'm trying not to borrow trouble and anticipate the worst on Thursday. But I just needed to get this out.
I did not enjoy the 6 month nutrition counseling or weigh-ins either. I did actually learn some new stuff and the habits that I semi-started have grown stronger since surgery. Though I was suppose to, I did not actually lose weight pre-operatively but stayed steady. I did cut bad habits (excessive OJ drinking) but probably should have taken more advantage of that period to wean myself off caffeine, learn portion control and learn to chew and sip.
I learned most of my new habits post-operatively though I see old habits (and new behaviors = browsing) creeping back. I think the longer the behaviors have been in place, the better I am doing with them. I need to be more vigilant because genetics wins over surgery. This weekend, I ate 1200-1400 per day and gained 2-3 lbs. The new skills are necessary to make this tool work . . . and I was not one to believe that mantra to start with.
I learned most of my new habits post-operatively though I see old habits (and new behaviors = browsing) creeping back. I think the longer the behaviors have been in place, the better I am doing with them. I need to be more vigilant because genetics wins over surgery. This weekend, I ate 1200-1400 per day and gained 2-3 lbs. The new skills are necessary to make this tool work . . . and I was not one to believe that mantra to start with.
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