Rough Day Yesterday

Well, I thought since I had already been through weight loss surgery once in 2004 (VBG) this would be a piece of cake!  I was SO wrong!  Yesterday pretty much put life into perspective for me.  For some reason, anything I ate didn't agree with me.  Beans, cottage cheese, tuna, eggs... everything I had already been eating for a few days! 

Last night I threw up for the first time since my revision (07/15/09) to RNY.  I didn't eat too much it just didn't agree with me at all!  I cried a lot and really beat myself up for it.  It was all because prior to my revision I threw up at least once a day for years!  I didn't want to throw up again!  :( 

My partner sat with me and hugged me and just let me feel.  She doesn't know just how much that helped.  There was nothing that could be said... it was just the fact that she was there and let me just process what I was feeling.  I felt like a failure.  I had to readjust my feelings and today I see it a little more clearly.  I just had an off day.  Today has been better and I am sure will continue to be a good day. 

Thank you all for your support and for listening.

Lisa

 Lisa,

I totally understand what you're going through.  Well I didn't have revision but i understand the throwing up.  I used to be a champion vomiter.  Trying to find the right foods I could eat and making sure I chew a lot.  constantly being nauseous.  I've been through it.  Let me ask you, did the doctor tell you that you should be on any kind of antacids?  I take a pepcid a day, every day.  Even though I never get heartburn in the traditional sense, I can get sick and get vomitous real easily if I don't take one because the acid in the part of the stomach that's left in there seeps into the common channel and it is not pleasant.  There have been a few days where I had gone without my pepcid and OMG i'm in agony.  

I'm sure with a revision, you're having to start all over again with your eating and that must be frustrating for you.  Just remember to chew thoroughly (even if it's mushies) and don't gulp down the masticated mush.  That can cause air pockets to make you throw up too.  

We're here for you honey :)  *HUGE BEAR HUGS*

Thank you for responding!  Yes, I take a Prevacid everyday.  I do chew like crazy.  I think I just had an off day.  Not sure why.  Now, I am good and I can eat and everything seems great.  It's weird how our bodies just go nutso on us some days. 

 

I thank you very much for being so kind!  I appreciate it very much!  Thanks for the hugs too!

 

Lisa

Hi Lisa!!

As I'm sure you are already aware, this journey is TOTALLY crazy and often doesn't make any sense.

 

Here I am 17 months out and still one thing will work today and the same exact thing won't work tomorrow. It's totally crazy. And if you are not throwing up from over indulgence you really need to give yourself a break... You can not be responsible for what your pouch will handle one day to the next.

Thank you for your message.  :o)  My stomach is just like that.  Most days are good others not so much.  I take it a day at a time.  Thank you so much for your encouragement!!!  :o)

Lisa

I wonder if it's always like that. Was it like that after your first surgery but before revision?

After a few years from my first surgery I knew exactly what I could and couldn't have.  It didn't change much.  Now, I am back to square one and its okay I just have to remember it will pass.  This surgery was MUCH more difficult on my body than the first and even the skin removal.  I'm still off of work but I am trying to enjoy it.  Work will be there when I return.  I don't want to hurt myself or be exhausted.  My partner went back to work after 2 weeks.  She regrets it now.  She wishes she would have taken the time to take care of herself.  I wish she would have taken the time too. 

Hope you are well!