It is done, I am home.
Hey there! I can home on Tuesday of this past week from my 6 day hospital stay. Today is the first day I've really felt like being on line or really socializing.
I came home from the hospital heavier than I went in...which I knew was a possibility. At first in the hospital I coulnd't drink/eat anything they gave me but diluted apple juice. LOL Talk about wanting to escape!!!! That's now changed. I'm on my puree diet and trying to get all the food and liquids in. Seems that the food is okay, but I have only been able to get in the 3 meals a day, not the 3 snacks as well. And water and other liquids just seem to make me cramp more...so not sure what's up with that. Maybe it was the ice chips I lived on for the first 3-4 days post op.
My sugars are coming down rapidly. I'm rarely over 100 anymore! :) I'm off one insulin completely!!!!!!!!! My scale says I've lost 10 pounds since Wed morning! I've been doing everything at home without pain meds. I finally found tylenol liquid that is normal today, and took some as I walked from one end of walmart to the other while shopping and was in pain.
So I wanted to take the time to take care of me after this, but of course that can't happen! So, my in-laws lost their house and moved in with my partner and I on Wed. Yes, that was my actual first day home. So along with the mother and father in-law comes a 17 yr old, a 15 yr old (both boys), 3 more dogs (which have no training, not even leash training), and 2 cats (who DO NOT get along with our cat). On the bright side....they are family and we are able to take them in and help in their time of need. The other good thing, all the dogs get along (we have 2). However, now it's getting everyone comfortable in our normal sized house. Thank God for 2 bathrooms. :) I'm looking on the up side, but with all the chaos this week......I've barely had time to really concentrate on me and how I feel. Plus, you DO NOT show emotion around her family....so it's more burrying of my emotions.
I've been kind of sad, and quick to anger the past few days...I don't know if it is from the surgery or the chaos. I'm at terms with things....I see comercials for new foods and think, "i'll never be able to try that" but I don't get mad at it. My partner's mom and step-dad keep telling me how guilty they feel for eating in front of me because I have to limit so much.....maybe that is bothering me. I keep telling them that they shouldn't feel guilty. I eat what I eat and that is that....but they just keep going on about how they couldn't do it and how they admire my will power.... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WILL POWER....it's the need and want to live a healthier life.
I'm getting stronger....but still feel like a burden. I know everything is happening for a reason, and I know I'm strong enough to get through it....i just don't want to jepordize me in the process, if that makes sense....
Anyway....I've really missed this board and sorry for bearing my soul, but for now...this is all i have....me and my written words to a group that has seemed so loving and opened armed before. :)
I came home from the hospital heavier than I went in...which I knew was a possibility. At first in the hospital I coulnd't drink/eat anything they gave me but diluted apple juice. LOL Talk about wanting to escape!!!! That's now changed. I'm on my puree diet and trying to get all the food and liquids in. Seems that the food is okay, but I have only been able to get in the 3 meals a day, not the 3 snacks as well. And water and other liquids just seem to make me cramp more...so not sure what's up with that. Maybe it was the ice chips I lived on for the first 3-4 days post op.
My sugars are coming down rapidly. I'm rarely over 100 anymore! :) I'm off one insulin completely!!!!!!!!! My scale says I've lost 10 pounds since Wed morning! I've been doing everything at home without pain meds. I finally found tylenol liquid that is normal today, and took some as I walked from one end of walmart to the other while shopping and was in pain.
So I wanted to take the time to take care of me after this, but of course that can't happen! So, my in-laws lost their house and moved in with my partner and I on Wed. Yes, that was my actual first day home. So along with the mother and father in-law comes a 17 yr old, a 15 yr old (both boys), 3 more dogs (which have no training, not even leash training), and 2 cats (who DO NOT get along with our cat). On the bright side....they are family and we are able to take them in and help in their time of need. The other good thing, all the dogs get along (we have 2). However, now it's getting everyone comfortable in our normal sized house. Thank God for 2 bathrooms. :) I'm looking on the up side, but with all the chaos this week......I've barely had time to really concentrate on me and how I feel. Plus, you DO NOT show emotion around her family....so it's more burrying of my emotions.
I've been kind of sad, and quick to anger the past few days...I don't know if it is from the surgery or the chaos. I'm at terms with things....I see comercials for new foods and think, "i'll never be able to try that" but I don't get mad at it. My partner's mom and step-dad keep telling me how guilty they feel for eating in front of me because I have to limit so much.....maybe that is bothering me. I keep telling them that they shouldn't feel guilty. I eat what I eat and that is that....but they just keep going on about how they couldn't do it and how they admire my will power.... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WILL POWER....it's the need and want to live a healthier life.
I'm getting stronger....but still feel like a burden. I know everything is happening for a reason, and I know I'm strong enough to get through it....i just don't want to jepordize me in the process, if that makes sense....
Anyway....I've really missed this board and sorry for bearing my soul, but for now...this is all i have....me and my written words to a group that has seemed so loving and opened armed before. :)
Glad you are home. Great about being off insulin!
After surgery, for weeks, I was very irritable and intermittently sad about my loss (food). My routine was disrupted on so many levels - eating, work, pain, ability to move around etc.. But, no where as much as yours has been!!! Extra people and animals would be very trying. I can imagine that just trying to keep dogs and cats from jumping on your belly causes stress - did in my house. And, I can only imagine the cats fights!!!
After surgery, everything got a bit better each day. Walk - it really helps eventhough it was hard. Can you walk your dogs at least? Wear down some of the energy in the house ???
And, you won't be deprived of foods forever, just limited to a very small portion of what you want which surprisingly is quite ok!
After surgery, for weeks, I was very irritable and intermittently sad about my loss (food). My routine was disrupted on so many levels - eating, work, pain, ability to move around etc.. But, no where as much as yours has been!!! Extra people and animals would be very trying. I can imagine that just trying to keep dogs and cats from jumping on your belly causes stress - did in my house. And, I can only imagine the cats fights!!!
After surgery, everything got a bit better each day. Walk - it really helps eventhough it was hard. Can you walk your dogs at least? Wear down some of the energy in the house ???
And, you won't be deprived of foods forever, just limited to a very small portion of what you want which surprisingly is quite ok!
Hi Rae, Congratulations on getting through your surgery. I think it's wonderful that you are helping your inlaws and the family. I would caution you to make sure in the midst of all of it, you put your healing FIRST!!! Allow everyone else to take care of themselves. They are adults (even the kids are capable). Take time to rest!!!! Take time to walk!!!! Take time away so you can get some quiet.
Remember you had general anesthsia which is a central nervous system depressant. It is very normal to get post-op depression which for some people, can last a few weeks. Do not fight it. Paper yourself. Tell your partner that you need help and be sure to tell her what you need, even if you aren't sure that that is. Sleep is very important in reclaiming your health after surgery. Try to get at much as you can. Walking will also help dissipate the toxic chemicals from your body through respiration and perspiration. Drinking all your water is also vital ... I mean absolutely necessary. Make it a priority. Flushing out the toxins from the anesthesia will help you get your mood back up. You are also very susceptible to dehydration right now and you don't need that.
Try to find some quiet time every day to read or write to us... your friends who understand what you are going through. Use this time to get into a routine of your meals, snacks, vitamins, and fluids. Write it all down. Set timers. Using this time while you are recooperating will help make the habits easier.
Take good care of yourself so you can be better and better and allow others to take care of themselves. Many of us who have been obese are huge at giving to others but not so great at taking care of ourself. We don't want to be seen as selfish. If there was ever a time to be selfish girl, this is it. You deserve to be healthy and to be a priority. And you are the only one who can do it... and ask for help!
And we are here to help too. You are amazing and you are going to do great.
Hugz!!!
Remember you had general anesthsia which is a central nervous system depressant. It is very normal to get post-op depression which for some people, can last a few weeks. Do not fight it. Paper yourself. Tell your partner that you need help and be sure to tell her what you need, even if you aren't sure that that is. Sleep is very important in reclaiming your health after surgery. Try to get at much as you can. Walking will also help dissipate the toxic chemicals from your body through respiration and perspiration. Drinking all your water is also vital ... I mean absolutely necessary. Make it a priority. Flushing out the toxins from the anesthesia will help you get your mood back up. You are also very susceptible to dehydration right now and you don't need that.
Try to find some quiet time every day to read or write to us... your friends who understand what you are going through. Use this time to get into a routine of your meals, snacks, vitamins, and fluids. Write it all down. Set timers. Using this time while you are recooperating will help make the habits easier.
Take good care of yourself so you can be better and better and allow others to take care of themselves. Many of us who have been obese are huge at giving to others but not so great at taking care of ourself. We don't want to be seen as selfish. If there was ever a time to be selfish girl, this is it. You deserve to be healthy and to be a priority. And you are the only one who can do it... and ask for help!
And we are here to help too. You are amazing and you are going to do great.
Hugz!!!
"When patterns are broken, new worlds emerge." -Tuli Kupferberg
Also I honor you for not being selfish and having your inlaws have a place to live. Make sure you takt the time for yourself to rest and heal!
Welcome home Rae.. Please remember this is an emotional rollar coaster as well as a physical one. First the mourning kicks in.. You miss your food.. Then the chemical depression (hormones are stored in your fat cells when you lose rapidly they are all released at once, you'll be crying one minute and want sex the next. It's CRAZY!!)
But please think of you first and foremost, like Raven said you were kind enough to move the family in.. They can take care of themselves AND help take care of you.
But please think of you first and foremost, like Raven said you were kind enough to move the family in.. They can take care of themselves AND help take care of you.
I have found a new way of life that has kept me at Goal since 2008.. And keeping it that way!
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