he kissed me!

first of all, i need to mention that "sal" is short for "sally." i'm a woman, and i'm decidedly bisexual. i work at a GLBT agency and am fairly visible in the houston community.

(the magazine article about my surgery is at http://www.outsmartmagazine.com/cms-this_issue/200901--The+I ncredible+Shrinking+Woman.html)

(for the record, i'm down another 15 lbs since the article.)

back in october or november, i found myself noticing some signals from a coworker, and realized there may be something there. i hadn't felt that in a long time, and not because of The Fat. i just went into some kind of emotional/sexual hibernation. i had to laugh when the feelings stirred, just because i wasn't sure they'd ever return.

there seemed to be a kind of tension -- the good kind -- between us, but when i asked him if i was picking up on something, he told me that the only thing he knew was that he wasn't in any kind of headspace to pursue a relationship.

i didn't mind. i wasn't that deep into it. so i reined it in. i did confront him and say, "dude, you need to be more upfront with people when you let them down because the way you're doing it gives people a sense of hope, and we all know that can be dangerous. best just to say i'm not into you, even though i know we're friends and you want to let me down gently."

so through these last few months, our friendship has grown. he would come out to gay night at cafe adobe with me every monday night. we'd go to the lesbian bar every friday night. not just the two of us -- always in groups.

this week, he asked me to go apartment hunting with him on saturday, but i had a work-related obligation at the brazos river bottom (bar) all afternoon. he suggested he could tag along, so i confronted him -- "you just want to hang out with me, right? this has nothing to do with getting a new place, right?"

i'm like that. cut to the chase. own your feelings (see above re: letdown).

i think he hates being exposed (who doesn't!), so he had to admit it. i still was pretty sure it was just because we shared similar senses of humor and skeptism and heathenism and politics (which is what i found so damn sexy about him in the first place, but pretty cool to find a new friend.).

the brazos river bottom turned into barneby's (gay restaurant) turned into georges (predominantly men's bar) turned into chances (lesbian bar) turned into him asking me to dance turned into K I S S I N G. we both laughed at how everyone probably perceived us -- poor fat girl probably doesn't know he was a she, or what is this straight couple doing here, etc.

since i wasn't planning on anything, my apartment was a WRECK. (i am *so* firing my imaginary maid) so much so that the kissing is all that happened, um, until about 5 a.m. in my parking lot. okay, a lot of talking, too, but that's probably good, although kinda new for both of us to go slow.

he's a fantastic kisser.

when he got home last night, he texted that he can't wait to kiss me again. so pretty much... i'm "over the moon." i know people don't say that any more, but thereyago.

so happy belated valentine's day everyone, from the recently kissed,
sal

Sounds like a happy valentine's day indeed! Good for you. Enjoy whatever this relationship becomes.

thanks, nean.

the fact that it was valentine's day was an afterthought. how cool is it when you're out and you don't think it's a date but suddenly it turns into one?

btw, i love your quote.

that's so awesome honey!  whether gay, straight, bi....attraction is attraction and love is love.......go with it!

aaron,

thanks for the response. i have to get ready to go into work now. how am i going to focus?

i just realized that "sal" often gets perceived as male on the internets, and because sommer is dealing with her partner transitioning, i wanted to make sure that i explained a little more about who i am and what i'm dealing with. and since jody's mentioned being bi, i wanted that to be out there, too.

see, y'all thought i wasn't paying attention.

sal

Hey Sal...

I was there for that "Long assFunction" at the BRB...

Now since we have not met...where were you sitting...?? there was a very cute young guy, with an attractive lady...sitting at the railing between the dance floor and the bar..Ok i'm dying to know..where were you (back around Melissa???)

we really have to smack brandon around..for not doing the formal by now..

you had a great time..so did I..must have been something in the air at the BRB..hmmm

chat back..

that's funny. i was at the railing between the dance floor and bar with a really cute guy, hanging out with melissa and sara. melissa's one of my closest friends. there's a photo of me at that outsmart article link, but i don't have as much weight around my face.

damn... a lost opportunity. i would have loved to meet you.

so where were you? were you eying my man? lol!

 

Sal....if he was kinda tiny...looked about 14...(cradle robber) yes he did catch my eye..

ok...now to your right...did you see a guy standing against the wall...kissing a bear all afternoon long...that was me...

(Midget with a head like a q-tip)

Mellissa does great prayers...

i did see you! i remember thinking, he's eying my man! lol!

didn't notice you macking with a bear, though, but i saw you.

he is only 8 years younger than me. i knew that when i was with him, but you didn't, ya hawk! lol!

sal

Ok eight years younger than you..and you are 24..so he is 16...Right...

****ep a pocket full of corn...chicken feed) (just kidding....not really...well maybe..) very pretty man...

I played with that guy all afternoon long...and he has not called..ok i'm gong to slit my wrists now..hell I did not even get a name...I feel so trashy...

if he calls i'll be trashy again...