To add to the last post Boys and Girls input needed...
First of all I know it's not just me, I have a TON of friends who are constantly complaining that what they do/achieve is never good enough. that THEY are not good enough. But they are all woman.
Do men do this to themselves too?? Beat themselves up no matter what the situation is? No matter how much better they are doing or being or living.. I'm sure this is all deep rooted in my child hood (not ever being good enough. I mean my sister was a 5'11 blonde cheerleader with a 4.0 grade point average, and me.. well not so much on any of those accounts,)
Ok enough psychoanazling here..
I don't complain much about it though. I tend to internalize the disappointment and either choke on it or focus it towards doing better. Not sure which I do more often, but I'm trying to shift the energy towards the latter.
I don't tend to share to often either. I just LOVE to bottle it all up, but man I'm so over it. I swear I want to smack myself and just say. HELL WOMAN you are almost 100 pounds lighter than you were in March AND I have NEVER been a size 8 for as long as I can remember ever.
I completely relate to the chasing the eternal 2%.. Ugh.
I constantly complain that my loss is so slow and I could be doing much better. I am finally seeing that it is not true. When I started my journey 6 months ago, I wore 46" waist slacks and XXL shirts. I have had to buy pants once (42s) and have just been wearing them clinched. I kept wearing XXL shirts. During these January sales, I've gone shopping and found out that I wear 38" slacks and Large shirts. I started wearing them and people began complimenting me on my appearance. I realized that I was portraying myself as a heavier person and was unable to acknowledge that I was really a slimmer person.
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I was raised my mom and grandmother to be a strong fighter. Without them I would not be here. My life has not been easy, however I am surviving and moving forward. I beat myself up all the time because I have a deep seated need to be the best and do my best. Of course I do not always achieve that and I am very hard on myself. I have learned not judge everyone else by the high standards I judge myself. My sister was always thinner than me and I was the smarter one who was my own worst enemy due to experiences in my life. But I still move foward, back and then forward again. Such is the rollercoaster of life. As long as I am alive I can learn and keep going and not give up. That is all I can hope for.

It's never too late to become the person you might have been.... George Elliot

on 1/24/09 9:08 am - Houston, TX