Morning Friends

Morning everyone,

I saw Sean's post on another board, so I thought I'd drop a quick post to say Hi.

My life has become pure Hell this past week.  My wife informed me that she knew what I've been up to lately and I need to make a decision.  She wanted to know when I started again since we had this discussion once before.  I told her I've never quit, so now she wants answers on what I plan to do.  If I only knew.  I know only I can make that decision.  Wi**** was that easy.  Our wedding anniversary is in a few weeks.....33 years.  Hard to believe I've been such a wimp that long.  It's to the point now, I can't do anything alone without her checking on me.  I can't even get on my computer without her being in the room.  Thank goodness for work.

Take care my friends.  Will try to stop in more often. 

Just Me

Just Me,

Please know that I love you! Let the group here put our arms around you and know that you are still a wonderful person.

To everyone here, please send support on to Just Me. He needs us worse than you will ever know.

Thanks!

Tommy,

You mean more to me than I can ever tell you.  You know you're my very best friend and I love you so much, too.  I miss talking with you and that makes this even harder.  I know with your support and love, I'll get through this, but it sure doesn't feel like it right now.

Thanks for your love and support.

JM

 

Hey there!  Firstly  *HUGE BEAR HUGS*  lean on us for support.  I know it can't be easy what you're going through.  We're here for you!  The beauty of this forum is that we can cater to not just wls issues but we know what you're going through. 

Sending you major good thoughts of help to get you through this.

Aaron,

Thanks so much for the *HUGE BEAR HUGS*.  This forum is wonderful.  It's hard for me to get on here because she watches my every move at home and I even have to be careful at work.  We work together and she could walk in my office at any time.  Prisoners have more privacy than I do at the present time.  I really appreciate your support.

JM

Major big hugs coming your way.

Have to say that for my situation ONLY - Out is way easier and I respect myself so much more. But I am totally aware that the way Out could be holy hell. 

Thanks for the big hugs and support.  Appreciate it so much.

JM

I just had a flashback to what my life was like when I was living at home and my parents found out I was a lesbian. It was truly a living hell -- one I'm still not sure how I survived. My heart aches for what you are going through.

You do have to make a decision, though. You cannot -- NOR DO YOU DESERVE TO -- live with this constant level of stress, guilt, and shame indefinatly. Also, despite how she may be treating you, your wife is scared and deserves to know where she stands and what her furture might be after 33 years of marriage. This is not something that you "started up again" and can somehow "quit." You made the decision to be gay when she made the decision to be straight. It's how god made us. How we choose to live our lives has everything to do with what we've been conditioned to believe was "normal" or what family and society expected of us.

This is the hardest thing you will go through, but we are all survivors with our individual war stories. You're doing the right thing by reaching out, and I encourage you to seek out organizations or professionals who can help guide you through this emotional minefield and ease your transition. (NOTE: Your local clergy person may not be your best choice!)

I hope you will visit here as often as you feel comfortable so that we can remind you that you are good, worthwhile, and deserving of contentment and fulfillment in your life. Besides, we can also be a hoot -- too bad you missed the "Drag Queen Name" and gay jokes threads...

Hang in there brother -- we're with you in spirit!

Joanne

Joanne,

Thanks so much.  Your words are very inspirational when I need it the most.

JM

Hey Just ME

As Russell Simmon's new book is entitle -- "DO YOU" -- you can't do anyone else.
Just drop in when you get the chance ---

Love and Light