numb

like the title, of my post - I'm numb. I've been in an 8 yr realtionship and I think, no I know it just ended today. Shouldn't I feel anger, heartache, pain? It hasn't been the same since before the surgery, but we tried, and it was in unconventional realtionship to say the least - she's married, he knows, he's wonderful and accepting, we live on seperate coasts. Last weekend we were together having fun watching the premiere of the L-Word in Wilton Manor, and today, I'm numb. I'm trying to be logical, (stupid but that's me) to understand that this wasn't happening overnight, but still shouldn't I feel something other than numb?

Numb is normal for what you've experienced. But you will go through a thousand feelings in the next while and most of them many times. Grief is like a spiral. You feel bad and then better and cycle around to bad again. But the cycles stretch out and the pain lessens and the good times are longer. But today and the next while you will feel numb or anger or whatever. It's all OK. I will send good energy and thoughts your way. Connie

Thanks Connie - I've fluttered between numbness and sadness - not anger Just sadness that I saw this coming since the night before my surgery, sadness that I desperately held on for this long. Sadness for me for not being the strong woman that I am.... This to shall pass.

Strong women experience grief too and sometimes don't act on things they see coming. Those things that appear to be coming sometimes make a last minute turn, so don't be so hard on yourself. Maybe the universe has another door for you to open... Connie

This is the hard part, but you said it yourself...This too shall pass!