HI FAMILY I HAVE MISSED YOU.

It has been a looooong time since I posted, i am not happy with myself right now I am back to my old way of eating , i am trying so hard to eat right. I should be at my goal weight by now but I just can't get there. There have been so many changes in my life that has caused me to get off track. I haven't exercised since december, i was happy when i reached my goal to do one hour on the eliptical, my partner and I rented out my home in wisconsin and purchased our first home together in georiga. We both have new job and we are trying to get our life back on track. I started out at 431 pound I down to 254 I have only lost about 20 pounds in 6 months. I was told by the dr that I would puke off of anything sugary, DOES NOT HAPPEN. When it is that time of the month i just eat chocolate like crazy, with no problem. I am up all nite thinking about why am i doing this to myself I am so depressed. I fought for 2 1/2 years with the insurance company to get the surgery, GOD blessed me. I figured out that i need support and this board is what has been missing in my life. I love my partner but i feel sometimes she doesn't understand, but I really can't fault her she was there through every tear i shed , but she is always wanting to eat out, EXPECIALLY TO ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFETS, I DON'T EAT AS MUCH AS I USE TO BUT I KNOW THAT I AM NOT EATING THE AMOUNT OF FOOD I SHOULD CONSUME. IT IS SOOOOOO HARD FOR ME RIGHT NOW. I WANT TO TAKE OFF 60 POUNDS BUT IT IS SOOOOO HARD. GOOD NEWS IS I HAVEN'T GAINED ANY WEIGHT , THANK GOD. But i just don't want to do this to myself. PLEASE FAMILY HELP

Girl ... don't be so hard on yourself! You just need to get back on track. You're only human and old habits DIE HARD! I would recommend that you write down everything you eat and commit to only eating a certain number of calories a day. Even if you eat the wrong things, at least you won't overeat in terms of calories. Hang in there and good luck!!

I am so happy to see you posting ! I have often wondered how you were doing. You have been my inspiration throughout my journey. I'm sorry you are struggling. We are here to support you. Try going back to the basics-water,protien and more water and more protien ! Oh and that d*mn exercise ! I am not quite 4 months out and have been having stalls and slow weight loss. It's hard after watching the numbers on the scale go down so fast for so long. I hope things get better for you.Keep your chin up. d

Oh Honey, we have missed you too!! Now come on...you know you can get right back on track. You are in control...no one else. You are a strong, beautiful woman and you can kick this right in the ass. Back to basics baby...keep track of what you are eating and make every bite count. If you eat a little more one day, eat a little less the next day or two. You have your tool for life and it will work if you work it (sounds weird coming from a pre-op, but c'mon, you know it's true). Rachelle

I know the feeling. I've got off track myself but all can be turned around - back to the protein, the exercise and remembering why I put myself through this in the first place. The universe hasn't been all that great for me over the last twelve months but it's time I started to take back control!! Don't know what I can offer re your partner's eating habits - that's really hard. Stay in touch. Charlotte

Consider finding yourself a therapist, especially one who specializes in cognitive-behavioral therapy. You need to retrain your brain to STOP engaging in self-destructive behaviors. Also, consider getting "The Beck Diet Solution" by Dr Judith Beck - it's a do-it-yourself six-week cognitive-behavioral training program.