week from hell!!

Hello family, I know that I do not post much, but I read the boards every day. I am at a very low point right now On friday afternoon at work the principal came up to my classroom and told me I had a phone call. I went down to the office to take the call and it was my partner telling me that my father had died from a heart atack. Of course I was an absolute mess and she was on the way to get me. When she got there, the office staff wouldn't let her in the room where I was until she told them exactly who she was. I was not out at work before then because I was worried about the reaction of parents if they found out that I was gay. (I teach elementary) But anyway, she picked me up and we went to the hospital to see my dad one last time. On saturday I was at my mom's house helping her with funeral arangements. I had not been feeling well all day, but I figured it was just from being so upset. I got a sudden urge to go #2. After I went I wiped and it was full of blood. I stood up and looked in the toilet and it was full of blood. Then I went down stairs and just about passed out. My mom called an ambulance and they took me to the hospital. I was in from saturday night until this afternoon. I had a bleeding ulcer So now I am on some meds which will hopefully make me feel better. But I am on a clear liquid diet until monday when I go to see my surgeon. I was really looking forward to thanksgiving since my family is still grieving. And of course the turkey. It was not hard to not eat when I was in the hospital, but now that I am home I want to eat everything in sight. It is so hard. I used to turn to food when I was upset or depressed. And now I am really depressed and I can't even eat a thing. Any advice on getting through this mess without my best friend (food)?

Oh Hon my heart goes out to you. That is just too much at one time. I will be praying for you and your family. I am so sorry. You are in my prayers take care of yourself.

Oh sweetie! Big hugs to you. I'm so, so sorry to hear about your dad. Death is such a hard thing to deal with. I hope you are feeling better. That must have been quite a scary thing. Please keep me posted as to how you are doing. i'm worried about you. Rachelle

Hi - So sorry to hear about your difficult week! The only advice I can offer is to try to make 1 good decision at a time and think before you put something in your mouth. What else can "feed" you in your grief and challenges? A walk with your partner or a friend, listen to music, knit, pray or meditate. Think about what will heal your spirit. I'll be thinking of you. Becky

Sierra: Wow - so much to deal with all at one time! I hope each day is getting better for you. The one thing that consistently works for me to avoid "eating to feel better" is staying active/occupied in other ways. Picking up a project that's been sitting unfinished for a while and working on it when I feel the desire to eat, getting out and taking a walk, etc. Will be thinking of you. Keep us posted on how things are going for you. Steve