update on me!

Hey Everyone, Sorry I haven't been on here in awhile, life has been crazy. I am fostering kittens for a animal rescue group and its harder than I thought and takes up alot more time, plus it is ALOT more expensive than I thought,, Also this past week, mon-fri I was in laffayette doing orientation for work,, I can't wait to start work,, I haven't had a "true" job in like 3years,, Also any spare time I have I have been trying to spend with liz and my family, My mom has decided to move to texas to be closer to my uncle who is not doing good ( for those of you who don't know he got into a HORRIBLE motorcycle accident 4 dyas before katrina hit and just recently came out of a coma and is pretty much a vegetable) also my aunt is going through some really hard times, and she owns some kart business' in the malls up there , so my mom is going to go up there to help with that,, I will miss her alot but know its a good opportunity for her, and that since my meme moved up there she is not doing good at all b/c of all the stress,,, Me and Liz are doing good,, for some horrible reason I have nightmares almost everynight that she is going to leave me , I am sick of waking up crying and hope I can find a therapist I can go see to find out what the hell is going on.. My weight is doing so so,,, its really weird sometimes I am hungry as sh#$ and other times I can't even think about eating and can go all day without eating,,, Also sometimes I can eat more than ever and other times 2 bites does me in,,, Its strange,, I haven't been weighing near as much ,, I am trying to stay off the scale,, but I got on last week and has lost 7pds and was pretty excited,, My 18's are now fitting big and I LOVE THAT!!!! only problem is I have NOOOOOOOOO money to buy any clothes , even thrift store clothes so I am stuck with huge clothes which make me look big,, plus my underwear are soooooo big me and liz joke b/c I can pull themk up to my boobs!!! Its a great feeling but I need some new ones!!! My hair is falling out now but VERY LITTLE,,, I thought/hoped it would fall out a lil more,, my hair is soo thick and could use some thinning !!!! I have been taking my vitamins everyday so I was proud of myself for that,, Since liz decided not to move in , I have been having HUGEEEEEE money problems,,and I have already asked my mom and dad for a **** load of money I can't possibly ask them for anymore,, so I have bill collectors calling out the ass, and my poor account is over 100 overdrawn and yet again rent,cable and electricity is due again on the 1st-5th,,, yikes,, I may have to become a hooker!! Think someone would be interested in a fat woman??? Some days I feel skinny as can be and some days I feel I haven't lost any,, anyone else have that?? I am soooooooo excited I got this surgery though and would do it all over again anytime,, everyday I do new things I could never do before,, like I now fit into the bath tub with no prob,, my stering wheel no longer bruises me,, I fit into almost all booths now,, damn applebee's booths are still small ,, I no longer fear I will break any chair I sit in,, and most impt my health is SOOOOOOOO much better ,, I am now borderline low blood pressure when before I was WAYY over,, its wonderful,,, low bp has always run in my family also,,, Hope everyone else is good,, sorry I haven't been around and missed the meeting again I was in laffy for work,, I was sooooooooo excited to be able to buy a 38 pants,, When I was in school I wore a 48 so a huge difference to me!!!

Sorry to hear about your uncle. I truly hope everything works out for him. I am glad things are going well for you in your personal life. Sounds like things are working out for you with your weight. Just keep it up. Melissa