need to vent some

I am having a bad emotional day. I feel like such a failure today. I really need a job. I have not worked in about a year. I was not able to walk much before surgery. I send resumes almost daily. I get interviews, but never get jobs. In a few weeks, the money situation will be horrible. Some bills will probably not be paid. Technically, I am single and have no source of income. I just feel like I don't know what to do to get a job. Maybe it is just how I am. Well I was going to splurge and go to a baseball game with my niece; she is visiting from out of town. Well when I talked to her earlier seems her bf and her got tickets for themselves. If I got a ticket, I would be sitting alone. Not worth it. Here ball tickets are not too expensive so I could have done it financially. The idea that I was left out made me feel bad. I honestly do not have friends where I live. I need someone I can talk about the things that I am going through and I feel like I have no one. Of course, I have my gf, but sometimes I need to talk to someone else. I mean I tell her everything, but she takes responsibility for me. Like financially she has taken care of me whenever I was not working. Thank you for letting me vent. I just needed to express some things. Hope you are all well

I feel your pain. I got laid off from my job of 8 years in December 2004 and have not had a "real" job since. I went back to school and am now in nursing school. Even though I know what I am doing is the right thing I still feel like a failure. I am the breadwinner in my family. My partner has Lupus and doesn't work. Thank God for her disability income and financial aid for school, otherwise we would be screwed, BIG TIME. I just try to keep my eye on the prize, though. I'll be done with school in about 2 years and things will be better. In the mean time.............. Good luck and don't give up. XOXOXO Sharyn

Thank you so much for your post. It helps to see things in the eyes of someone else. I am also in school. I should have a bachelor's degree in December. I do not get much financial aid so I do not have that money to fall back on, but every bit of education I have will make my future better.