Freedom to Live

10/4/05 Tue. 11:17pm Light and Hope make a new day Looking back I see the sadness Thankful for the sun in this day Wanting more, learning to love myself As I see others in such pain I wonder what I can do to ease that suffering It comes across, no matter the color, age, sex The misery of the day, for those fighting not to sink The depression driving them from the ones they love Driving them from life itself Seeing the devastation, living in the moment Deepens the darkness in which they swim When, along comes a light, The source The catalyst that once again springs hope before them Lightening the burden of their day To awaken anew, facing a new day Being able to take the challenges as they come Not cowering from them, No, Embracing them head on Finding the Freedom to Live! MedicGeek10

I loved that! You know, it is kind of hard to find that freedom. I have lost 73 pounds, but I'm still 350 in so many ways. It is kind of scary to think about all of the things I can do to live my life to its fullest. It was a bit easier when I could hide behind those extra pounds. Thank you, MedicGeek!!!! I really enjoyed the poem. P.S. Did you decide Stockbridge was too far away for the job?

Thanks Stephanie for your kind words... I know sometimes I still have to remind myself to do things Myself... because I no longer hurt and don't need to pass on it... or ask someone to do it for me... you would think I would have that... but like you said... in my mind I am still where I was... I so want to move beyond that... last saturday... I did something I haven't done in almost 15years.... I got in makeup... See.. I am a hobo clown... and had stopped that because of my size.. and my outfit not fitting... but since then... I am looking into doing this again... I have found a Clown Alley in Atlanta and met a really great Clown that I called from the yellow pages... so I am looking forward to doing this again... I just am taking it easy so I don't go over the top, which I have a history of... sorta like a manic / depressive type of thing... but I am thinking of trying to do this again Proffesionly like I use to when I was younger... anyhow... I will email you about the Stockbridge part of the post... Thanks again... MedicGeek10