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hi my name is jacquie (jb) and i am new to all this. well - i have been considering surgery for years but my insurance always excluded it. finally this year, it was covered and i decided to go for it. i had appts set up for january to get the ball rolling but decided i could do it on my own (yeah right) and cancelled it all. after 6 months of "trying" and only losing a pound or two here and there - i decided to go for it. i have an appt with my pcp tomorrow evening and "clinic" set up with dr macik's office tuesday morning. i havent been able to sleep NOR complete my paperwork. its like i dread having to actually write down all my diet failures. it makes me feel like crud. i have never been a quiter nor a failure really except when it comes to my weight. i have been having such strange feeling - soooo excited to think that this might actually happen, scared to death that they will continually deny me (5ft5 250lbs), scared all my hair that i have finally grown past my shoulders for the first time in my life will all fall out.... its just amazing all the feelings. can i get a "GET OVER IT JACQUIE"??!! i know some of you have got to have felt some of the same feelings - havent you? thanks for letting me vent and i look forward to a "losing" relationship with you all! jb scared and nervous and tired as heck!!!!

Heya "i have never been a quiter nor a failure really except when it comes to my weight" This has nothing to do with it at all.. you are not a failure... this is a whole different ballgame here... It took me 2 years to finally say "yes" and now the only thing I regret is not saying yes sooner. There are thousands of "us"... and all we want is a better life free from obesity... and now we are on the right path... ... so if you are ready... follow the No Fat/Low cal butter colored road

thanks for replying. of course, after i posted i was like - well - i have been divorced twice - so i guess i have also failed at marriage a time or two.... ok - enough negativity. i have heard from several people - actually - everyone that i have talked to who has had this surgery say they wish they had done it sooner. i have GOT to fill out this paperwork. what if my story isnt compelling enough to make a stranger stamp APPROVED on my paperwork??? what if they dont think i have tried hard enough - which i have.... i know this paperwork is probably the easiest step of the whole procedure - but its got my stoma*****nots. does anyone have a "cheat sheet"???!!! i will be fine. i will be ok - urgggg jb going to go and get my pen and "just do it"

Can I say AMEN!!! You have just put my every thought into words. I'll be praying for you and let me know how you handled it all. I am setting an appointment soon and I will be on my way too. We will just have to be scared and nervous together