5 Month Check In!

Hi all , Just hitting my 5 month anniversary,and wanted to let everyone know how I was doing? I FINALLY feel like a real human being after two major surgeries in 4 months. The Gallbladder surgery has enabled me to do simple things now, like DRINK WATER! I actually ate some chicken last week for the first time...Now, I still have issues with food, and still some vomitting...BUT NOTHING like I was going through before. I have no hunger, and because of this, I have no desire to eat. I find myself back in my old habit of only eating once a day. The amount I eat is so miniscule, that I think I am actually harming myself instead of helping myself. I to those who can maintain a good eating schedule. I just have no desire to eat, and it frustrates me to try and force something in. I am not sure if I am ever gonna get past this. Even protein drinks give me issues. I have just concluded that this is uniquely me, and to deal with it! As of today, I am less 85 lbs. I am also a bit frustrated because I have been stuck here for two weeks, and does not look like the scale is EVER gonna budge. I want so badly to hit the century club by my 6 month anniversary, but not sure if I will make it. I am trying to be cool about it..but you all know how it is. I also find myself OBSESSED with weight loss and scales. No matter how hard I try, I can not stay away from them, and get on them twice a day. I absolutely have a fit if I gain one ounce. I now understand how anerexics obess. Sometimes I think I am just plain I am back into my life before WLS full swing. I am my different roles...with being heavily involved with Scouting. Cookie sales begin, and not only am I the service unit cookie chair, but also our troop cookie chair. We just held the annual father /daughter dance, which was just beautiful as well. I am the School store chair, as well as the yearbook chair..we are working on production to meet the March 14th deadline for submission. Kelli is still recovering from her surgery and doing well. All in all life is good, and I am for joy to be feeling more like me. Here is my weightloss photo journal for updated pics. I have posted some of Kelli as well. (http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=5443059&uid=2720669&members=1) you all! Denise

Hey girl!! Glad to hear that you are feeling better! Congrats on your weight loss!! I miss seeing you on the boards regularly but understand how hard it is to juggle all the other on-goings in life can be. HUgs, Tonya

Hey Tonya, I have been a lurker reading, and also checking you out slim! Incredible what a few months can do is it not? Despite my crazy schedule, I promised myself to make sure to meet you all in the next few months for the dinner/get together thing this group does monthly. I want to meet some faces with names. I see all is well with you- loved the XMAS pics of Nicolas...and see that James is coming along fine. Hope all is well with you! Miss chatting with you as well. Denise

Denise, Congratualtions on getting to the 5 month weight loss! 85 lbs is wonderful!!!!! I know EXACTLY how you feel when you were talking about the scales, it got to the point where my husband took it to work with him, and would only let me have it once in awhile. It is back in the bathroom now, and everyday is a struggle on whether or not I want to get on it. See even after two years It is still a struggle, one though that I hope you will conquer! I do know that my doctor once told me that if you don't eat enough your weight loss might stall, I don't think that I have any advice for you on that though, you know your body better than anyone and you and only you know what you can handle. I never could handle the protein shakes, so instead I make everything about protein. Breakfast is usually a one egg omellet with cheese and ham. Snacks are lean ham and turkey, cheese, hard boiled eggs( careful with those, I usually break them up into lots of pieces) I have been doing this for the past two years, and my weight loss was actually ahead of the game. Anyway good luck to you, I think that you look wonderful! Cathy Martin

Hey Cathy! The scale thing is not a joke. I seriously was thinking I might need therapy about the obsession.. Here is the problem with me an protein.... I have been unable to eat for so long, that now that I can- its a chore. The thing is, what normal folks can eat, I am just learning how to do again. For example lean turkey or ham deli meat. I have attempted a few times to eat this, and quite frankly, it does not sit well. Cheeses also get kind of lumpy, and do not sit well. Now, things like, a hamburger pattie, or meatloaf...I can eat. Any type of beef, or ground beef I can do. I just was able to add chicken last week. I have not yet ventured back into seafood after the unfortunate results I had in consuming it. When I am in the office, I try to pack my lunch box to have small snack things, like SF jello- which I am now able to eat. Laughing cow cheese lite, which I can tolerate, and some kind of meat. Now do I get it all in, that is a totally different story. I promise to get it together, but I got to tell you. I feel like a person in rehab after my body going through a tramautising thing. Everything is new, and everyday is an adventure. I have had so many issues up til now not being able to eat, that the thought of now doing so is overwhelming. Also, the major fear of vomitting has alot to do with it as well, you know? I have not yet dumped, and I have not experienced any of the things most of you guys have. Having no comparisons, or anyone who can relate to my experience makes it a bit harder to compare. Thanks so much for the compliment! Gonna keep plugging away! Much to you! Denise

Congratulations on your weight loss. Certainly glad things are getting better for you, you've bee through alot. Don't let your scale obsession get the best of you! Take care, James

Hey Denise, I am so happy for you. You have been through a lot. Don't worry, when you qui****ching th scales, you will lose before you know it. If I can help in any way, just let me now. Hugs, Debra =^..^=

Hi, Denise, You're looking GOOOOOD!!! COngratulations on your great weight loss. I loved the pictures! You are a "dream momma," as I call you super mothers!!! I KNOW what school store chair and YEARBOOK chair mean....Oh My Goodness!!! How are you sane?!?! LOL I'm so glad that you are feeling better. Please take care of yourself!!! Love, Becky P.S. I hope you can make the next monthly GA Board meeting. I would love to meet you in person!