COMPLETE Breakdown!

I am truly going to end up in the nuthouse with a complete mental breakdown before the year is through! This has been one of the worst years! I lost my grandmother, this weekend I lost my uncle. My Dr. has turned into a total jerk about the WLS, after encouraging me, now won't write the letter (ready to give up there!) And if that don't beat all, I've had this dang MRSA to deal with. I have spent every month of the last 6 months in the hosipital (minus august) for at least a week. I've barely been off the last meds for a week and whats happening...BAM another freaking spot is popping up. My family is flying in on Wed from KY for Christmas. I haven't seen them since June when I had to go home for my grandmothers funeral, this is my first christmas dealing without her being there, I can't take ANYMORE!!! I keep asking isn't enough enough?? My poor husband has to deal with this stupid MRSA too! He's as worn out as I am, and it feels like no one will fix it and no one wants to! I try not to ask for much, right now I'm just asking that everyone PLEASE PRAY for me! I almost had to spend Thanksgiving in the hospital, I REALLY don't wanna spend Christmas there!!! Kim

Kim, Sorry to hear about your loss. {{{hugs}}} As for the surgery I ALWAYS tell my self everything happens for a reason! That is what I have lived by! It is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel but God knows more about what he is doing than we do! You got to hang in there! Everything is going to work out, then you will look back and say that worked out great! My old insurance I had was giving me the run around for about 6 mths or more and I didn't understand why I was trying so hard and just kept getting lies fed to me. Well with a job promotion I got switched to another insurance and they aproved me first time! Also there out of pocket was 3000 (which I was willing to pay) now my new one is ins. is $250 and I am going to get paid while I am out now! Hang in there oh did I mention I am from Jax, FL also! Keep in touch! I will be praying for you! Rhonda

Rhonda, Thanks so much! It's really hard, especially with everything combined! Did I mention the MRSA caused me to lose my job back in the summer? I haven't been able to find another one since, because regardless of my qualifications, I truly believe my size keeps people from hiring me. What bothers me the most about all of this, is what it's doing to my family. This MRSA, I feel, is slowly killing me. I spend every month in the hospital, and my family is in KY. My mother threatened to come down here last time because the Dr. was treating me so badly. My poor husband usually spends the day and night in the ER then has to go to work, comes back to the hospital for a couple of hours, comes home to take care of our dog, get something to eat, and pass out from exhaustion and do it all over again the next day. I feel like such a burden to them! Everyone has dealt with enough and here we are dealing with all of this to boot. I just sit and cry thinking of how this stupid disease affects everyone around me! Kim

You hang in there, and like my Mom always says "think positive"! Good luck! Rhonda

prayers are going your way ps... do you think they will let us share a room in the nuthouse?

I'll save a padded wall for you (thanks for the smile!) Hugs Kim

Kim, I am so sorry this year has been a difficult time for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope that you dont wind up in the hospital or the nuthouse. Hang in there Amy