Surgery in 15 days..

Hi everyone, Well my surgery is in 15 days and I am starting to get nervous again. I can not believe that it is actually that close. I know I will come out okay, I am just having the usual thoughts everyone else does. I am 21 years old, so I am a little bit more worried than most I think. I'm still a kid, ya know? Anyhow...can ANYONE give me some thoughts or ideas to keep my mind off of the "bad thoughts"??? Lynn

Lynn, Best of luck! The thing that sticks out in my mind right now, the post-ops on here respond to questions of whether they would do it all again, "Yes, but I'd do it sooner!" You're doing it early in life, so you'll have more time to enjoy the healthy new you!!! Erika L

Well, Lynn, I can only say that I wish I had had this surgery when I was 21. I kept avoiding the issue of my weight. I kept telling myself that I would stop growing. That my body wouldn't get much bigger. I figured that since I was still active and pretty healthy that I had nothing to worry about. I was kidding myself. I kept getting worse. By now, age 27, I am really feeling it. My legs, back, ankles, etc. are all in semi-constant pain. I move like a 90-year old arthritec woman with osteoperosis. And I haven't had a social life at all for the last four years because I refuse to allow a woman see me naked again. I don't know if I will live through the surgery. I know the odds are definitely in favor of it but quite frankly even if it was a 50/50 chance I'd still take it. I'd rather risk my life by having this surgery than continue like this. I had ALOT of doubts as to whether I should have the surgery. I know I couldn't lose the weight on my own before it becomes a MAJOR health risk. But I figured I would still have several years of life ahead of me. Finally, it took the Dr. telling me exactly how badly I've screwed up my health before I woke up. Even now I am scared to death of the surgery. I guess that comes with the territory of being an athiest - no safety net. What I myself did in order to take my mind off of it was to create a "Top Ten" list. It was a list of the ten things I couldn't or wouldn't do now that I want to do after the surgery. Number 1: Go to Las Vegas. Number 2: Take a cruise. Number 3: Take my family(Nieces/Nephews) to Wet N' Wild. Number 4: Be an extra in a movie. You get the idea. Whenever I feel particularly scared I whip out that list and surf the Internet for info on this and sooner or later I get over it. Sorry for the rambling response. PS: My grandparents live up in O'Brien which is right outside Branford. I used to love going up there to the springs and the Itchnatucknee(sp?). Going back is actually number 9 on my list.