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Hello everyone,
Even though I haven't been up to posting, I have been reading.
I'm trying to keep busy and get back to some sort of the normal. The therapist said I'll never get back to "my normal" but I'm trying to get through each day. I did isolate myself a lot last week, but really, I was exhausted. I went back to work and since DH and I are in the same field, everything was a reminder. All I wanted to do when I got home was take care of my dogs and go to bed, which is what I pretty much did. I was out most of the day today and managed to get quite a few frames for our wedding pictures that I had been wanting to put up. Going out to dinner with my family tonight and even though I just want to stay home and be alone, I think Bruce would want me to go out.
Anyway, I'm trying to get food in. The thought of it makes me sick, so I'm drinking protein shakes and eating when I can. I hear DH's voice in my head telling me to eat and drink, but it's so hard. jhe was/is my biggest supporter! I truly believe that my surgery was a gift from my husband and firmly believe that had I not had the surgery before his passing, would be well on my way to 400lbs. I was watching a show on TLC the other day about several housebound severly morbidly obese people and started to cry when I realized that could have been me.
To those of you considering the surgery - do it. Second to marrying my DH, it was the best thing I've ever done.
I did add some new (old) pictures. I will take my three month post-op pictures later this month.
Thanks to all of you for the cards and support. It means so much.
Stacey
Even though I haven't been up to posting, I have been reading.
I'm trying to keep busy and get back to some sort of the normal. The therapist said I'll never get back to "my normal" but I'm trying to get through each day. I did isolate myself a lot last week, but really, I was exhausted. I went back to work and since DH and I are in the same field, everything was a reminder. All I wanted to do when I got home was take care of my dogs and go to bed, which is what I pretty much did. I was out most of the day today and managed to get quite a few frames for our wedding pictures that I had been wanting to put up. Going out to dinner with my family tonight and even though I just want to stay home and be alone, I think Bruce would want me to go out.
Anyway, I'm trying to get food in. The thought of it makes me sick, so I'm drinking protein shakes and eating when I can. I hear DH's voice in my head telling me to eat and drink, but it's so hard. jhe was/is my biggest supporter! I truly believe that my surgery was a gift from my husband and firmly believe that had I not had the surgery before his passing, would be well on my way to 400lbs. I was watching a show on TLC the other day about several housebound severly morbidly obese people and started to cry when I realized that could have been me.
To those of you considering the surgery - do it. Second to marrying my DH, it was the best thing I've ever done.
I did add some new (old) pictures. I will take my three month post-op pictures later this month.
Thanks to all of you for the cards and support. It means so much.
Stacey
Highest - 330 Liquid diet - 326 Surgery day - 308.5
AOL IM: Staceyshoppersfl
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