Pushing Through Depression

Today is a rough day for me. While I know that I have to get my exercise in I am having trouble just "being" today. My depression is at an all time high and I can barely find it in myself to even type this message. Things from my past are beginning to surface. I am having nightmares (I haven't had them in years) and finding it more difficult to concentrate. I am certain I need to get back on some sort of meds but can't afford the trip to the doctor at this time.

So I guess my question is, how do I push pass this? I don't want all of my hard work to go to waste. I have a long way to go on this weight loss journey and I know this is only the first of many hurdles. I haven't felt this unmotivated, unloved, unappreciated and empty is a long time.

Help!

I know this feeling well.  Sometimes just existing takes all you have.

If you can, please go outside and take a short walk, even if it's just around your yard.  Even five minutes can help clear the head and put some perspective on things.

Thank you. I received some really bad news yesterday evening and decided to go workout to clear my head. It helped. The pain still exists but my energy wasn't wasted.  

I'm proud of you.  That took a lot of courage to get going.  

I hate feeling powerless over a situation.  I'm finding that exercise at least gives me some feeling of control over my life when everything else seems unfixable.

I find that getting started is the hardest part. Once I've done a few reps with some weights or walked for a few minutes I get into a groove and I'm fine. The whole routine repeats itself the next day so I have to keep forcing myself to get going.