My Biggest Fear!!!!

Ok... A few things you said that really stick out at me... 1) "I want to be the beautiful bride"... Beauty comes from inside and NOT from what a scale says!!! Your fiancé knows this, and loves you for YOU not for who you MIGHT become. 2) "I am really scared of saggy skin" coupled with "my knees and back are in horrible shape" I would be far more worried about the health implications from being obese versus aesthetics. When and if the time is right, you can have surgery to remove skin issues. I am a 2 time Ironman finisher, 8 half Ironmans, 5 marathons, and ULTRA marathons ranging from 31 miles up to 75 miles, ALL with my hanging skin, which was recently removed by plastics. Finally, you need to understand that the only thing keeping you from accomplishing your goals is what is going on between your ears. Wars are not won in a single battle, they are won over a period of time through consistent and concerted effort. YOU GOT THIS!!! Make it happen...