A little freaked out--

(deactivated member)
on 5/23/11 4:26 am

Two weeks ago I decided to sign up for my first 8k which will be this Saturday, the 28th. I wasn't sure if 2 wks ago I could run 5 miles but I've been doing it ever since and know that I can run it on a treadmill in about 50 minutes.

Yesterday I suddenly got all wigged out at the thought of running the 8k. It was like this little voice took over in my head saying "You're still just a fat girl. What the hell makes you think you can run a 5 mile race?" I'm trying to extinguish that voice but dang, she is persistent.

Am I alone in feeling this way? Do I need a therapist (haha) or have any of you ever felt this way?

nate2009
on 5/23/11 4:30 am - Lebanon, OH

RNY on 07/14/09

I have to kick fat boy's butt every day. Wake up every morning and tell fat girl your kicking her butt today !!!!!!!!!!!!!! You got this ..... no doubt in my mind !!!!!!

No longer about weight , it's all about living.

Paul C.
on 5/23/11 4:34 am - Cumming, GA

RNY on 07/16/10

Same thing here. I know I seem to bite at something bigger everytime I turn around, but the main motivation behind it is to prove that the "Fat Guy" is long gone, but it is a constant reminder.

You can do the 8K you know deep inside you can.

Paul C.
First 5K 9/27/20 46:32 - 11 weeks post op (PR 28:55 8/15/11)
First 10K 7/04/2011 1:03 First 15K 9/18/2011 1:37
First Half Marathon 10/02/2011 2:27:44 (PR 2:24:35)
First Half Ironman 9/30/12 7:32:04

pamkb
on 5/23/11 4:44 am - Crestview, FL

RNY on 11/16/10

I understand exactly what you are feeling. My first event is a 4.4 mile event on Monday (I will be primarily walking and using it as a training day for C25K) but the 'fat girl' is getting noisy now. I used to be able to shut her up with cookies and chips but now I just have to figure out how to evict her a$$ permanently or figure out how to kick her butt, as the guys have learned.

You will do great on Saturday. We have belief in you and you know you've got this in the bag!

I am creating my own revolution and PAMdemonium reigns!

RNY 11/16/2010

SW 270, CW 155, GW 135

1st 5k time 40:34 (Dec 2013)

mcarthur01
on 5/23/11 4:51 am - Cumming, GA

RNY on 10/30/08

it's called confidence. believe it or not we all deserve to have some, you just have to let yourself be confident that you can do it, be confident enough in your training (you're already doing it), and be confident enough to know that if you falter, it's not the end of the world, it's just another opportunity to get up and try again harder. it takes time.... but that is half the fun, building up your confidence.

Where are we going?? And why am I in this handbasket??

right now. somewhere. somebody is working harder than you.

Kim S.
on 5/23/11 4:58 am - Helena, AL

RNY on 05/01/09

You are only racing against yourself. Go out there with the understanding that you've probably logged more miles than many of the other runners, and there is no gun to your head; if you can't handle it, you can walk back to your car and leave.

That always makes me feel better--knowing I'm in control and have an "out"....which I've never used.

YOU can do this--duct tape fat girl's mouth shut.

Kim

(deactivated member)
on 5/23/11 5:05 am

RNY on 11/24/09

Ya'll are cracking me up!! Yes, us NY'ers say "ya'll" from time to time.

I honestly don't know what's come over me. Its weird. I get anxious/excited before a race but I've never doubted my ability to run.

Fat girl is sooo getting her mouth duct taped and I'm shoving her a$$ back in the closet!!! Right now!!!!