Hi Laura

I have always had an infinity with the Jewish faith. I think it is about the ritual and routine of it. I love the tradition. I know a girl whos surname was Elkin and her folks were from Sterling in Scotland!!! small world.    I cant imagine eating until I was full, I never feel full, I have been told that the hunger signals disappear and you have to make an effort to eat. I cant wait to lose that feeling of feeling continuously hungry. Thinking about food all the time. Although I guess that will never change as you have to plan meals even more now i expect.  

Molly has come back from her fathers, she is going through the attitude stage (she is 12) its hard work on my own!! I sometimes just feel like a lousy mother playing good cop bad cop.....but I have to stay strong and not back down!!!  i havent eaten much today, and as Molly has eaten I cant be bothered to cook just for myself. So ill will end up with a poached egg on toast I suppose.

I just accepted your friend request on facebook, you have a lovely looking family. Your daughter is beautiful. She looks so much like you.

I love your hair, my hair has no curl whatsoever!!! its poker straight!! I hate it!!!

Did losing your weight change your life in anyway? I know it isnt going to change my drudge of a life lol, but I just want to be able to go cycling, and swimming without people looking at me. I have become very concious of myself. I try to avoid social gatherings now as I feel people are waiting for me to eat! its probably in my imagination but I cant help the way I feel. In fact my close friends tend to come to my house.

My weight has been a continious bitter circle, as I got bigger I began to eat for comfort then that made me very depressed and I ended up on antidepressants which piled the weight on, so I emotionally ate and so it all went round in a circle. I have broken the circle now I dont emotionally eat anymore. So I am hoping this operation will help.

I really look forward to your emails and I think you are right God sent us to each other to help one and other.

Your new friend across the pond

Nikki

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Hi Laura,

Well its Sunday Morning here, my favourite time of  the week, listening to the radio and its so quiet. Molly is at her fathers until 6pm. I used to go to church i am pentecostal but my pastor passed away last year aged 47years and it made me upset with God. So I have not been since his passing. I listen to the radio and i still read the bible but my faith has diminished.  Are you a Christian?  I like this Sunday morning ritual I have, i sit with my coffee and cat and the radio and contemplate life, it is spiritual I suppose hehe.  I live in an apartment high on a hill, i have amazing views over the villages from here so sit with my coffee and look at the views....what is it like where you live. I live on the outskirts of a small market town called Nuneaton. I am not from here orginally I come from down south, a place called Billericay in Essex, it is close to London. I dont miss the City very much thats for sure!!!!!!

Going back after being off work poorly is daunting I know, I had a clot in my leg in February and I went back in April, i was dreading it....I was forced back really because I didnt get paid my salary due to sickness. There is only one wage coming in here mine!!! So went back on light duties....it was daunting but id been back an hour and it felt like I hadnt been away!!!. 

I am going to check out the Vista Mask this afternoon on line. I need to do something as I need to sleep!!!!

I have also been having problems with my cycle since being over weight. I can have it for 9 weeks at a time then nothing for months, my doctor said it was due to my weight, and I have seen a gynae doc too. They think I may have endometriosis, but because of my weight around my middle cant get a definate Ultrascan result.    I so hope it gets better once I lose my weight. I know my diabetes will or so I am told, it is only controlled with metaformin.   Did you have any of these problems?

Yeppers I am on Facebook...Add me as a friend [email protected] or you could find me under my name Nikki Blackwill...or Nicola Blackwill.

I have lots of pictures on there so you can see me bloom so to speak. Did you take before and after photos? I am not sure I want too.

I used a TENS machine when I had my daughter for labour painm never thought of it!!! definately going to dig it out and try it!! Thank you for that imformation.

Please excuse my typos today, I have mislaid my reading glasses, I think I have left them at work! So cant really see what I am typing very easily hahaha

I hope you are having a wonderrful weekend.

Nikki

Hi there! I'm looking for a buddy and/or Penpal who will keep me on track and hold me accountable for my actions.  I am getting back on track and would like a buddy who is interested in the same.  Thanks for looking!