Looking for someone to talk to and motivate me.

I had my surgery 01/03. I weighed 333 lbs. At my lowest I got down to 208 lbs, but could never get any lower. I have now had 4 abdominal surgeries since having my gastric bypass. I had to have my gallbladder removed a few months after the gastric bypass, then I developed a massive hernia they had to fix, then a full hysterectomy after trying unsuccessfully to conceive and finally a fourth surgery to fix a problem I was having with the hernia repair. Now 3 years post-op I weigh 275 lbs. I feel like an absolute failure. I have moved to a different state and have new insurance that won't cover anything involved with weight loss. My doc here has tried putting me on Wellbutrin for the depression that has set in and she said it tends to help combat compulsive overeating. It hasn't helped me at all. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I eat when I know I am not hungry, I just can't get motivated to exercise. I can't seem to give up the sugar that I know I am not supposed to have. My husband tries his best to support me but he is at a loss with what he can do. I am starting to feel like it was all such a waste of time and that I am forever doomed to be obese. Has anyone else had these types of problems. Thanks, Jessica