hell

All the time I've been on this journey I feel as though I have not gave it my 100%. I've lost 70lbs with no effort much at all.(always ate what I was suppose to on the menu for the stage that I was in.)
I have been thinking about TT this last month, found out we are about to change insurance.  So I decided to get to stepping to lose some inches while looking for a surgeon.  Well because I have been feeling so good with the weight lost I forgot about my FIBROMYAGIA  I started walking 3days ago and today my muscle in my legs are giving me so much trouble I take 2 step forward and 3 back (really )they are whipping me back to reality. I can barely stand on my own 2 feet. Now I no why I alway thought I was 1/2 stepping with my journey.  Not because I was 1/2 stepping it was the only thing that I could do in order not to feel so defeated(SP).  I'll probably be in bed for the next some days trying to get to walking (That's everyday walking it's killing me to do) the muscle are not letting me even get up.  I have no Rheumatologist he have left town, now I have to find a new one. THIS IS THE YEAR OF HAVE TO REPLACE DR'S.  including my RNY surgeon  left without me knowing.(Why is all the Dr's leaving without notice(if I needed to finish paiding them they would have notify meall records gone.Didn't even let the PC dr.s that he assignment to after surgery know. Was is the news paper and I don't get the news paper .  So there went my records he didn't even send any notice thru the mail nor thru our e-mail address they asked us for . OH Well. It' hurt to be trying to type this. If I can tell you what don't hurt I can get thru faster.  Anyone who have FIBROMYAGIA knows what I'm Trying to say that if I can even think straight.

The stress of brother with cancer,he was diagnose the same time Patrick Swazye was and  battling the same caner. It's one hell of a battle and I cry and holler all week.  With didn't help the Fribo at all . 

HB is going to hang around while I try to get a soak in the tub be my luck I won't be able to be out on my own.
You'll that have fibromygia what have you"ll be doing lately.
BE BACK I'M GLAD IT THE WEEKEND AND HOPE MOST HAVE GONE HOME,FACEBOOK OR TWITTER SO THEY DON'T THINK i HAVE LOST MY MIND.

Sorry you are having such a time. That is something my PCP is always pushing me about is getting exercise (he's a real health nut) but he does realize that with fibro we have to start slow and work up very gradually or we'll end up like you are right now. We have to remember not to jump in too gung-ho at first with exercise. Hope you get some rest and feel better over the weekend!

Not only did I start so fast I did a lot of house work because my house look like some crazy live here.  Now I'll be sick for a while.
It's been so long since I've been sick now I remember what it feel like. I'm going to have to hire someone to help me get my house in order to be able to enjoy anything around here. Lord I feel scrappy THANKS I'LL HAVE SOMETHING TO REMEMBER FOR ANOTHER LONG TIME.

I am so sorry you are in such a flare up.  I know exactly what you are talking about.   I do the same thing when I start to feel okay.  Then I pay for it for weeks.  This has been a hard week for me too.  I stayed home on Monday because it felt like something was inside my bones eating away at the joints.  Worked Tues and Wed, and then my husband was sick so I stayed home a nervous wreck Thurs and Fri.  Today another flare up.  I must get some rest this weekend so that I can make it to work on Monday.

I hate fibro.  I hope you feel better in a few days.  Don't worry about the house work it will be there later on.  I have to let it go myself too and it is hard but we have no choice.  I can't afford a housekeeper.  Take care of yourself and rest.  Gentle hugs .

Thank God my jobi s from home and I do it when I want (seamtress) and I haven't done it in quite a few years.  I pray you are feeling better on Monday for you to return to work and the HB is doing well also.

Kathleen,
I am so sorry you are dealing with all the stress and pain.
It is so hard when we get extra stress as it makes us hurt so much worse.
Good luck at finding new doctors. I hate to change.
Please keep us up to date how you are doing and know that we do know exactly how you feel.

Kathleen,

I hope you are feeling better today. I just wanted you to know you are not alone! I also sew for work.  I am blessed my dad left my brother (who's passed on) and me several duplexes so I don't have to work, but I enjoy it.

I mainly market my items on Etsy (like ebay, but for truely 'handcrafted' items.  Drop me a note, I would love to find a sewing buddy!

I'm working on Pirate Costumes for myself and my husband.  I also participate in themed events such as Ren Fairs, Pirate Fest and Gift & Merchandise shows. I have 3 embroidery machines (not commercial), a regular sewing machine and 2 sergers.


Lilli