my turn to WHINE.......

Hey you all!!!
How are you all doing? Everything here is OK I guess. The weather is YUCKY and it feels as the closer the storm gets the more I feel as if I am being crushed!
I think in a past like I must have been Hitler or maybe is assistant or even his mother or wife. I had to have been someone REALLY BAD in my past life to be tortured so much in this one ya know.
My husband is talking about us PCSing (moving to another military post) I am scared of this. What if I cannot find a pain specialist that listens as much as mine does here? What if they do not give me my pain meds?What if they think I am just pill seeking? What the hell am I suppose to do!!!
I have known for years that this move was coming. We always managed to get out of it because they needed people so bad here at Stewart ya know.
I hate this disease I really do!! it not only screws with your body pain wise but screws with your head also. I wish I could go back to the days where I could deal with the pain without pills. When I could just pop two Tylenol and call it a day. Now I pop two morphine's and call it an hour.....LOL......On a good note I went shopping and can now wear a size 14\16 blue jeans....YAY me    OUCH......OK no more jumping up and down....
oh well I better hush.....love you all and hope your having a very good pain free day............
HUGS
Kimberly

Kimberly hugs your way ( gently)I k.now what you mean about changing doc's. I had gone to the same one for 17 years and she quit. I was so upset about changing I mean i about cried for days. BUT the new doc is OK and does understand .So hopefully it will all work out for you.
Again i repeat NO ONE KNOWS how much we suffer. I look at those that do not have Fibro and they complain about all their MINOR aches and pains and I think to myself good thing you do not have my PAIN. They wouldn't last 1 hour with it.
But in some way we are the silent heroes we survive.

You know I tell my best friend that seems like everyday now. I was hurting really really bad the other day and my meds was not working they just would not cut the pain ya know. So I took a few shots of vodka. Like 3 maybe and it worked it cut the pain right out. Granted I was a little drunk but you know what I WAS NOT IN PAIN!! My kids where not at home my husband called and asked what I was doing and I told him he about laughed till he peed his pants at his wife being drunk in the middle of the day. Granted I am a very silly drunk.....LOL.....So he done what any normal husband would have done. He played hooky from work and came home and took advantage of me.....HEHEHEHE It was fun too!! I do not remember half of it but he says it was fun. The poor man has to take it when he can get it I guess....LMAO

My best friend reamed my ass telling me how BAD I was and how WRONG it was for me to drink and even more so because it was in the middle of the day. Some how I cannot get it through to her that I HURT and you do what you have to do in order to make that pain go away!!!

Thanks for the gentle hugs here is some coming back your way ((((((Gentle hugs)))))))))

My husband hates it when I mention I'd like a drink.  I can't say I blame him much.  He and I had different childhoods so to speak.

I have done it due to pain in the past.  Word of caution....which I know you already know.... please make sure you dont have access to car keys, that you don't have to watch any kids, and that you are being careful with Meds and alcohol together.  There. I said it.

I think chronic pain sufferers should have access to anything and everything they want/need to control the pain, regardless of its cause or origin.

I normally wait until my kids are in the bed. Sometimes I will have a few drinks once my husband comes home. NEVER with me alone with the kids though. They are way to precious for that......I have never drove while drinking or after drinking. I cannot risk my families life or other peoples family. I am a big big believer of NO DRINKING AND DRIVING. Have seen way to many friends killed doing that ****
Thank you for worrying about me though I appreciate it very much!!
My husband thinks its funny when I drink. Do not know why other than cause I let him catch me when he is chasing me. Any other time I tell him NO leave me alone......LOL

Sorry you're having a bad day! It's always hard to find new pain care but at least pain specialists are more available these days and you will have time to check things out ahead of time. Maybe your current doc will make sure you have enough meds to hold you till you get established in your new location. Best of luck and maybe you'll even get better pain doc!

I couldn't imagine a better pain doc. Becky is soooooooooooooooooo good to me!
I am sitting here with a ****atoo on my shoulder..  he is my baby JarJar. He keeps trying to eat my keys

I know what you mean about finding docs that listen.  I refuse to ever move again because I LOVE my docs.  I feel like I've assembled a great team of docs.  They are good about sharing information between each other, etc.

Before you leave, make sure you get a copy of your medical records.  The doc office may charge you for this.  Other solution is when you get to where you are going, sign a release.  A doc's office will usually send records to another doc's office without charge.  But if you have them, then you know you are ready.  Second, ask your doc, she might be willing to do some leg work for you.  She may know of another doc in the new area you are moving to.  She did have friends in med school, right?  She might be willing to do a little research to come up with some names for you.  The only other thing I can think of, is have her write a letter you can take with you to give the next doc...some sort of summary of your history and what's working.  I believe that would demonstrate you aren't just a pill-popping drug seeker.