just wanted to tell you

Just wanted to let everyone know I am gonna be cutting off all my arms and my legs because I am friggen tired of them hurting!!! seriously does it ever stop? I often wondered if I became a drug addict would it help any...seriously I could sit around collect welfare and smoke pot all day just like all these lazy good for nothing folks. wonder if it would do any good. Maybe then the docs would listen to me I FRIGGEN HURT DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!
think it would work?
I seriously dought it!!
It seems I cannot take enough pain pills! Nothing helps at ALL. I have children I want to play with them while they are still young. You all are the only ones who will understand this rant. I sit here in tears because the pain pills I have taken today will not help. I am in pain and my docs have no idea how to fix it. pain pills only drug me up but will not relieve my pain. They said lose weight so I had WLS I have lost 63 lbs so far and I am in more pain then when I started. Does it ever give in, does it ever ease up?Sometimes I pray that God would just go ahead and end my time on earth. Just go ahead and take me to live with him, but then I look at my children. I know how hurt they would be if I was not here with them. There would not be anyone to care for them and to love them the way they need to be loved. But my pain is that severe.
What do you all do when it gets this bad?
Thank you all for giving me a place to vent out my frustrations. Without this place I would be suffering in silence......

I totally understand how you are feeling.  I too have small children and find it hard to play with them or even let them give me a hug at times.

The only thing I can tell you actually helps me..... is taking my kids to the indoor public pool and swim with them... just floating in the warm water feels soooo good on my body and my kids love it... so two times a month for 2 -3 hours we go as 'fun time with mommy'.

I wish you the best!
Emily

Thanks for the reply........
Sometimes venting does help....LOL.......

Wow. I finally found a home! I have suffered with Fibromyalgia for 7 years alone with no one to talk to that understands what I am talking about when I say I having a "flare up". They look at me like I'm making it up! I have found, though, tha****er aerobics at the YMCA helps alleviate the flares a little.

Hi Kim - I too suffer with Fibro -actually got it after surgery. We so have to live like an alcoholic- one day or one hour at a time. Keep reaching out to this forum. I am worried for you -if you are contemplating suicide you need to get help- please get a therapist or ask doc about antidepressants. I recently asked doc to up mine. I spend many days in bed and have felt lost as well, but it is also my child that keeps me going. Are you in chronic pain management? If yes maybe you need a new more sympathetic doc, or new meds. I use a combo of Long acting morphine and percocet as well as cymbalta- i still have pain but not constant. Feel free to email me for support maybe we can help each other through. My best days are when I have fought my own body to spend time with friends. Also do you take Lyrica? I did and actually made things worse for me. Gave me serious fibro fog and made me more depressed.
Will keep you in my thoughts!

Sincerely-Deb

Hi Deb,
It does get hard at times to keep going but I have not thought about suicide. I am bi-polar and have spirals of mood swings. I am on 4 different antidepression\psycodic (sp) meds.
Right now my treat for the fibro I see a pain specialist who is somewhat good. I have tried lyrica and felt no relief at all. Now I take Opana ER and opana instant. It helps me out alot. She also upped my dose of darvocet so that comes in handy too. Feel free to email me anytime, us fibroers can use all the support we can get.
Hope your having a pain free day!!

My mom feels just like you did....sometimes she says "Now I know why people with pain like me kill themselves." and "I'm so tired of hurting, I wish I could just die." It hurts a lot to hear her say these things because I cant help her.....I want to but nothing I can do will help.....She takes Methadone and cybalta and ibuprofen, Advil arthritis and nothing is working anymore.
 
She has tried all other pain meds and NOTHING works. Only methadone was working for her and now its not and she is taking more then she should just to make the pain stop a little bit. I get scared that shes going to take to much.....She said that she can feel the pain in her bones now....is that normal? she can barely walk and her left leg is all swelled up.

She can barely bend her left leg.....shes 220 and looses weight all the time and nothing helps. Here in Alaska medical weed is allowed and I want my mom to try that. But her pain doctor is a BUTT head! and I don't think he's allow that. He seriously is a a** my friends mom was one of his patients (she broke her hips in a car crash and had fake ones put in and they got old and she doesn't have money to get them replaced so she was in a lot of pain) and his assiant and he was trying to ask her on dates and she would refuse (at the time her and my friends dad were taking a break) he would not give up! 

So after her and my friends dad made up when the doctor asked her to go on a date she told him "Sorry but I am back with my husband and we have two kids." he fired her and is now keeping her medical files! He said that he found "marijuana in her urine" (which was a lie) and cut her supply off, and now because he has her file she cant find a new doctor she doesn't even want to deal with him anymore.....and the crazy thing is he STILL calls her house and asks her out to dinner!! I was at my friends house when he called and she yelled at him and hung up.......shes now very heavily involved with drugs :( My mom is scared he will do this to her.....eh. people. sorry that turned out to be longer then I expected. thanks for reading. But do you think my mom should try and get medical marijuana? I hate seeing her suffer......I think it will make her feel a bit better....

Report the Dr. to your local medical board for his actions.  He could lose his license for dating a patient, depending upon the state laws.

They have 30 days to send your medical files to your new physician.  They are legal documents and they cannot deny you access to your records.  You have a right to your files, have her stick to her guns on this one.  She deserves better treatment than she has been receiving.