sick and damn tired!!!

Basically right now I just want to SCREAM an YELL and VENT!!
I am so damn tired of HURTING I am about ready to cutt off all my arms and legs and  head and everything in between! Why does it have to be so damn HARD?? I get over one thing just to have something else go wrong and when that is over it is something else! I cannot win for losing. Yall are the only ones I knew would understand this rant. I just feel like I want to just curl up in my bed and cry till my eyes swell up and dry out. I am just damn tired of being sick every single day of my life! I want to run and play with my kids and walk my dog and clean my house and cook dinner all in the same day. I want to answer the phone and when someone says "hi how are you" I want to answer GOOD how are you. Instead its always the same answer "i'm here you?" I want to have sex with my husband instead of shying away from his hands because they hurt to touch me! I want to hug my children HARD. I cannot even hold my ****atoo because the weight of him on my shoulder is excruciating! He weighs a couple hundred GRAMS. I want to go through one day without taking a handfull of pain pills just so I can function. Sometimes it feels as the air is just so heavy I can feel it touching my skin. The docs do what they can they really do, but why is it never enough. My shrink says we will talk it through. You know if talking it through would ease my pain I would never shut up!!!
thank you all for letting me vent, I really needed to. I hope you all are having a better day then me, pain and care free!
Gentle Hugs
Kimberly

Kimberly,
Bless your heart I KNOW what you are talking about. I am trying to come out of a flare with bibro and arthritis and i was in so much PAIN I could not stand it. yes i understand about the sex. my poor hubby, I never am in the mood anymore it is hard when EVERY THING HURTS..........
People that do mnot have fibro do not understand. I have started taking magneisum, I have taken guafenisin for years and I take vicoden and sometimes still hurt....
Prayers for you

Pam

I know I have the fibro and then I have digenerative disk disease and facets disease and arthritis in my back. On top of that I am bi-polar and they believe I have PTSD from being a survior of muchoser syndrome by proxy. Long story short I have had a HELL of a life! Thank God my hubby understands some of these things or I would be all alone. I had a hysterectomy a year ago so my sex drive on top of not wanting to be touched is slim to none. I am only 32 so that makes it really hard on him. I take Opana ER and Opana regular then darvocet, oxycodone then all my crazy meds.
Its hard and I am soooooo tired of all of it. Thank you for the prayers they are much welcomed and needed!!
Kimberly

God bless you! Scream all you want cause we all want to join you! I know the feeling, I'd give most anything for just one day without pain. Seems like we all have pain issues on top of the fibro. I'm "trying" to deal with lower back pain on top of the the fibro. I can't move me legs or feet more than a few inches and I shuffle like an old lady, I'm only 58 so not quite ready to turn out to pasture yet! I'm gonna try to get into a neurologist and see if he can help but I have had all kinds of tests and they just say good news it's all fine! Well NO it's not fine because I still feel like there is a hot poker jammed in my spine for pete's sake! So we hear ya and we cry with ya and maybe some day they find a cure!

God Bless you, my heart breaks for you, we all understand because we are all there with you.  Hang in there, tomorrow is another day, hoprefully the medical field will come up with something better to help us soon.

I am blessed I haven't had a severe flare up in quiet some time, but Kimberly, I feel you. I've been there. I will be lifting you up in prayer. My eyes are watery now, since I KNOW what you are feeling . Please vent anytime you have to, you may contact me if you like. I am a great shoulder to cry on!

My prayers to you, "gentle" hugs for now (bear-hug reserved for later )
~Heike

I so feel your pain. I hate pain and tell my friends to just shoot me and put me out my misery. I have surgery in january on my back AGAIN and have over done it alot trying to get some stuff done but I never get anything finished it seems, or  i make more mess cleaning up. You are not alone,
Hugs
Shannon

Hi honey,
I so know what you are talking about.  I am in the midst of a pretty rough fibro flare up..the change in weather seems to make it worse.
I've taken more of my medication than I should this month, the pain has been excruciating and now I'm out of pain meds until next week.
I'm basically suffering.  I told my bf to shoot me last night and of course knowing the pain I'm in he said well honey you did take way more meds than you should have.  He doesn't understand...no one does.
People are sick and tired of hearing me talk about how bad I hurt.  I have lost over 300 pounds and my fibro is worse than it was at 445 pounds.  I **** you not.
I'm sorry you are also in pain honey, I don't wish this on anyone..not my worst enemy.
Gentle hugs to you...
Donna

What does your doc have you on? I am taking Opana right now along with oxycodone and darvocet. How many does hse proscribe you in a months time. Mine does 120 opanas for bad bad days, 25 oxy's for bad days, 50 darvocet for breakthrough pain and then 60 opana ER's that I take 2x's a day for controll pain...... My oxy's an darvocet last 2-3 months but my opanas are once a month. Thankfully I can call my doc and tell her hey I am in a bad flare and I am out of this and she will **** test me an then prescribe what I need. She is a wonderful doc. Of course that only happens once in a blue moon. I think that is why she works with me. She just now started doing this mind you. use to I could not get any of them to listen to **** Made me wanna slap them badly!
anyway i hope you find some relief soon.....
Happy holidays
Kimberly

Hey Kimberly,
I don't have alot of time, gotta get to work. 
I am on Lyrica 75mgs x2 a day
Cymbalta x1 a day
Wellbutrin x1 a day
I also get trigger point injections in my neck, spine, shoulders, and hips every 3 months.  He won't do it any sooner than that.
All this and I still hurt.
I also have RA, and CFIDS,myofacial pain and at one point there was talk of lupus but it was ruled out.
I also wish you pain relief very soon...
Donna