New pics, surgery update & journaling...WHEW!-sorry long

Hey,

Well today, Sunday, I did some last minute shopping for protein stuff and lotions and such. lol I'm actually really calm. John is going to take a pic of me on the way to the OR.  I'll post it when I can. I did post family pics today. I plan on staying very calm as long as I can!

I'm going to have my nails and toes done tomorrow. Shop with my mom and get some tomatoes planted.

I kinda started a little fire with the family.  I tend to be very direct and sometimes that doesn't always take into account others feelings.

I had decided a while back not to tell my family (except DH of course****il I was home.  Well I thought better of that a sent an email out of Sat.  Now my sister is hurt because I didn't tell her that I was researching this.

I sent her another email tonight explaining why I approached everyone this way...hope it helps.

Fact is, I'm still embarassed. I'm not sure I understand   why I feel this way.  Well, I have tried for most of my life trying to lose the traditional way, you know, lose and then regain... I think I'm feeling like I might fail again.  Then everyone would be thinking, Susan tried again but couldn't do it! I don't want to fail again. But I feel strongly that the DS is the best choice for me.


About journaling.  Have you started, kept it up.? Has it helped??

I'm sure it would help if I remember to use it.  Do some of you us this site as your journal?

Thanks for letting me ramble. Susan
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age 56 (as of 4/3)
CW 230
SW 230
GW 130
BMI 40.5
5'3"
Monax4

Best wishes on your surgery. I told my family but asked no one but my husband for an opinion. They knew there was no changing my mind from past experience. Hope all works out for you! Shannon

Thanks Shannon.  That's kinda of what happened here. My husband has been here everyday, listening to me but  LOL . He's supportive but nervous.