God Help me

I didnt do that good today. I ate about a half a box of Nilla Wafers. I just want to give up. What if this surgery doesnt help? Nothing will help me. I'm a failure and always will be. I feel like I will always be fat. I keep praying God will help me but He wont. Im so huge and so fat. And so ugly. What is going to happen? Is this going to work with me? Like it did the others? I am crying. I feel like a fat ugly failure who will never get her life back. This surgery is my last hope. My last chance at life. A new beginning of a new me. I keep hearing my neighbors voice in my head (not GiGi) saying "Youre gonna fail! You wont keep it off! You never have in the past, what makes you think you will this time!" I'm so FRUSZTRATED!! God help me. I dont know what to do. I just dont know. I'm helpless and hopeless. Look at me. I'M OVER 300 LBS!! What have I done to myself! I am confused. I'm losing all hope of anything to work for me. I mean I have tried every stinkin diet there is.

WE all have bad days. We all get depressed. Stop beating yourself up.... it only helps continue the cycle of binge eating.Call a friend, even if your emotional pain is not the topic, a friendly conversation will take your mind from your depression.

Surgery will help! True in a matter of years your body will adjust to some changes and it will then be solely your intake and exercise that will matter. what the surgery does now is to help teach you how to eat, how much and what. Every pre-op goes through those thoughts, every post op goes through those thougts, many people can relate to you, many people who have succeded.

You need to take these current feelings and emotions and use them as feul to help you succeed in the surgery.

have you heard the phrase, " those who don't know the past are doomed to repeat it" well , now is the time to get to know your past, becuase after your surgery....you won't be repeating your same life choices.

Stay Strong, all of us at OH are here for you, k?

Thank yall! I am feeling better. Its the next day and I slept good and now I feel better. Thank you for your inspiring messages. TTYL
Priscilla

 Hi Priscilla,

Just so you know, looking at your avatar your anything but, ugly.  Actually, you look very attractive in that photo and don't show that you are over 300lbs like you said you are.  Some people hold their weight in their face and some don't.   For some reason this is something I always notice, I guess I am just subconscious about it because every pound I gain goes straight to my double chin...ewww.
Cheer up, it will start to get better.  It sounds like you're down in the dumps today.  I hope this feeling leaves really fast.  A good nights sleep works wonders.  My surgery date is coming up and I can't seem to get motivated to lose anything.  I know how you feel.  Hope you feel better tomorrow.
Linda

You are a very pretty lady. We all have had doubts about whether it would work for us too. I think that it's perfectly normal to feel that way, I mean why wouldn't we feel that way. Every diet or program that we had done had failed before so why would we think that this would work to. It is just part of the mentality that we have gotten use to. However, this is different than anything that we have ever done or tried. You can do it ! I too was over 300 lbs, actuall 322 to be exact and now I am down to 252. So be assured that the surgery does work, I too had days where I just ate and ate prior to surgery. When I went in for this procedure I knew that I was going to listen to my surgeon and I would give it 100% effort. When I saw the results it just makes me want to do more and more because the Success of it feels so good! My eating habits now are completely different and my mindset is more determined than ever before.

You have to learn to tune out those people that are negative because some are just jealous of us having surgery and others just don't feel good unless they put people down.  Ignore those people! You are doing this for yourself and not for them.

Feel free to contact me or write at anytime. I would love to have you as a friend. 

Susan