One year ago today my dad died

I feel surprisingly ok rigth now. Had a bit of troubling settling into trying to get to bed last night... knowing the hour approaching. I kep****ching the clock thinking "Last year at this time he was here"... and then "Last year at this time he was gone" and then "Last year at this time I got the phone call". But I actually feel kinda ok right now. I am supposed to get together with my mother and sister today (along with kids) to go father's day shopping for hubby, and stop by the cemetary, and other misc stuff. Not much more to say. I just felt like I should note the day. But, oddly, other days have been harder than this (so far). Wanette and Josie... if you are lurking... I am thinking about you both. (As I do a lot..) .

I know how you are feeling. My mother will be gone 10 years in December and the emotions are up and down. Sometimes it seems like yesterday and sometimes it seems like forever. But everyday I still think of her and miss her terribly. My thoughts are with you.

I don't know if it is a comfort that the emotions stay that strong for so long... ... or if it is like "Gee, you mean it doesnt' get easier?" I guess it is more of a comfort. It would be wrong to just think I'd someday not miss him as much.

I also know how you feel my Dad will be gone 1 year August 18th and there are moments that I miss him so much that I sit in a room and cry myself silly. I still have the last message he left for me on my answering machine. I'm so afraid I'm going to forget what his voice sounds like so once in awhile I listen to the message and it really makes me cry but also smile at the same time. You are in my thoughts!! Barb

((((HUGS)))) *sigh* I to know what you are going through Maria.... Only mine is still pretty fresh I lost my father April 25th of this year so this will be the first fathers day without him. It is really weird it still find myself gravitating towards the card section or thinking "what can I get him for fathers day" it is just an adjustment period that is for sure. just know that you are not alone.