A wow moment of a different kind

Ok, day 2 was about the same. Day at work was not great, but wasn't horrible. I had one of my employees come talk to me before we left for the day. I've not been "myself" for about, well since right before Christmas. Anyway, this person would always come to my office and use my blood pressure cuff. He got one as a gift. Well, today, he comes to share his blood pressure success. I fake a smile and tell him way to go and keep it going. He stops and tells me, "You need to come back to us. I rely on you being here like you typically are. Your smile, your laugh, the way you care about us; all of this we miss. And if you think you weren't missed last week, you're wrong. More people than you know missed you. Come back to us" Then he doesn't ask me what's wrong, but he tells me whatever the issue in my life is, that God had chosen me to be the "intercessor". Ok, I had to look that one up, but he explained himself. He told me that whatever the problem is, it is obvious it is not mine. He reminded me of how "our time" is not "God's time". Going on, he told me that I was chosen to be the bearer of the pain and intricacies of the problem. Wow... Ok, tough chick couldn't hold back the tears. I, one time, told my mom when she began the split with her ex bf, that if I had to go through a divorce to help her with this moving him out thing, then my pain was worth it. She has basically given up to me all of the worries, the phone calls, the being angry with his family for verbally and almost physically assaulting her this last weekend. My employee's conversation hit a little too close to home because of this. In conclusion, here is what I learned today. No one can do things alone. Those of us who try to hide our feelings are almost always found out. And never think that you've not helped someone at least once each day. I never really allowed myself to think of myself as "needed" other than with family. It never ceases to amaze me how in those times where you think the world around wouldn't miss you, someone tells you how you touched their lives. We ALL make a difference to someone everyday. You might not be told about it, but you do. And just so you know, you, all of you, make a difference to me and I appreciate the support and online friendships. Liz