how I feel today..

so damn tired.. I think Maria's aunt is sucking the life out of me.. is this normal for people who are 46 I told poppa.. I am no spring chicken no more..

I feel pensive. and I'm always tired. borderline narcoleptic (sp) even

actually I have anxiety sleepyness.. anxiety from the caffene I'm sucking in to keep me awake from the sleepyness. and now I have a prizm going across my eyesight I got problems today..

Me thinks you've got a migraine starting with that prism effect.

a day late.. but I do have a suckie headache this morning I've heard that before too.. (looked it up online).. headaches follow those eye prisms. I was thinking headache from the heater in bedroom.. but could be yesterdays prism.

Hi Rhonda (and everyone else) I feel tired also. I had a busy holiday and vacation. Yesterday was my 1st day back to work since 12/14 and it exhausted me. I also slipped on ice while on vacation and screwed up my back, neck and butt, so I am in a lot of pain. Christmas was wonderful in the morning with Doug and his family. Christmas with my family sucked, they made me cry all day and I have vowed to never spend another holiday with them. I now know why I have such low self esteem. When you are around people who never know anything nice to say about you, you actually start to believe the bad stuff. Hope we all wake up soon... Deanna

awweee I'm sorry you fell.. and that your family suck.. I know I was a little disappointed in the attitude of a couple of my immediate family.. just that they seem unappreciate. I thought.. to self.. "self.. I'm glad I don't act like that.. and I think I won't spend so much on "him/her" next year .. " hugsss.. and I don't wanna wake up.. I wanna nap at lunch and think I will.. but that's when the coffee will probably kick in..

I am glad you had fun with Doug....you deserve that....I am sorry about your family treating you like that too....just remember to ignore them and you are beautiful and so worthy of all kinds of love from us and Doug.....you are an awesome person lady!!! I hope your back gets better too.....sorry about that....I had that happen at my heaviest weight right in front of a car and I was so embarrased and almost could not get up...it was horrible! BTW, did you get all moved and stuff? Loves, Annie PS Do you get to see Doug on New Years?

Thanks Annie, you are right, I know it, but it really hurts when all you hear is bad things from family. Doug was awesome we spent from the 15th to the morning of the 25th together. We had the best 1st Christmas possible. Our love for each other keeps growing and growing, just when I think I can't possibly love him anymore, I find that I can. He was even telling me he loves me in front of his sister (my best friend). She is so happy for the 2 of us, which makes me feel awesome. I have to work on New Years Eve until 4pm, but will be driving back down there to bring in the new year with him. Glad you had a great holiday with Nate. It is a wonderful time of the year to share with someone special. Love ya, Deanna

oh i totally did not know his sister is your best friend...how cool is that? wow....is that how you met? glad you get to ring in the new year together...that is fun....full of lots of kisses when are the wedding bells?