LIZZIE

RHONDA FROM KY
on 12/10/07 2:11 am - ALEXANDRIA, KY

RNY on 05/05/04

hope you are feeling okay

love ya sweet puss

PittsburghCutie
on 12/10/07 2:31 am - Pittsburgh, PA

RNY on 10/01/04

hello sweet tits.... *hangs head in shame*

RHONDA FROM KY
on 12/10/07 2:49 am - ALEXANDRIA, KY

RNY on 05/05/04

come here...

((((((((((((((((((lizzie)))))))))))))) i love you

PittsburghCutie
on 12/10/07 3:47 am - Pittsburgh, PA

RNY on 10/01/04

Final word on my insides is pancreitis(sp). That means, change in diet and absolutely no alcohol. Hahahahah....Go f'in figure eh? So for you people out there who do or are in the process of switching addictions to alcohol.....just remember our insides are not the same as regular people. http://www.medicinenet.com/pancreatitis/article.htm It's not a game, it's not fun, it doesn't solve our problems, if anything it makes our problems worse. Leading cause of pancreatitis-alcohol. high protien, not enough carbs.

RHONDA FROM KY
on 12/10/07 4:06 am - ALEXANDRIA, KY

RNY on 05/05/04

.."oh what an order.. I can hardly go thru with it "

good to know that there is a "somewhat" cure

NOW GET BETTER...

PittsburghCutie
on 12/10/07 4:12 am - Pittsburgh, PA

RNY on 10/01/04

Is that before or after I have to convince myself not to hit the liquer store on the way home from work. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I can't even tell you the last time I picked up my book, let alone read it.

RHONDA FROM KY
on 12/10/07 4:30 am - ALEXANDRIA, KY

RNY on 05/05/04

I haven't either Lizzie.. I've not done the steps.. I'm at step 4 and have not gone further.. I seem to dance around all the steps and haven't done that one. Not that I'm embarrassed or ashamed to do it.. just haven't taken the time to sit down and right **** out..

Last Wednesday I was suppose to go to a meeting.. where my sponsor is. I didn't want to. I was at the thriftstore.. enjoying myself.. and didn't. For some reason I feel guilty.. when I don't go to the meetings my sponsor expects me at.. I've not called her.. etc. But don't have the desire to drink.. somedays I think just keep doing what I want to do.. you're not drinking.. you don't want to drink.. so screw the meetings and step 4..

and then I think.. but what if THAT is what's keeping me from not wanting to drink etc.. plus I want to help others (if they want it) and I should follow the program myself if I want to help others.. soooo I was debating on tonites meeting.. but I guess I'll go and feel guilty with my sponsor for not making last wednesdays.. and not calling her ~~sigh~~ it's no rocket science.. it's easy.. it's simple.. it's an act of doing nothing.. except going to meetings.. socializing with people.. and following 12 easy steps.. even an alcoholic can do it.. so I guess I can to.. and so can YOU

hell it takes more effort getting drunk.. and covering it up than following the basic 12 steps

RHONDA FROM KY
on 12/10/07 4:38 am - ALEXANDRIA, KY

RNY on 05/05/04

btw.. on a more serious note.. a dear friend of mine from my local hole in the wall died a month or so ago. I just heard this last week when I ran into someone at the store.. he said that Kurt (in his 30's with a small boy) died. A while back (when I was going to the bar) Kurt had derviticulitis(sp)..and had a colostomy to let his colon heal. He continued to drink.. way too much.. then started popping pain pills. Last I saw him he was healing and going to have his colostomy reversed. Not sure what happened.. but perhaps his colon didn't like the continue alcohol that was being consumed.. hell I can only imagine it would irritate it worse..

but Tracy said that he went down hill and died. as you said.. it IS serious stuff.. you're life just might depend on you not drinking