sadness for me

okay all since yall are my friends and some of ya know whats going on in my life i have news on my SSI Once again i have been turned down i have been doing it for over a year now and it caused a minor emotional breakdown tonight...ok maybe not minor but anyways now we are going to go to a lawyer the ssi people are saying that even with all the **** that is wrong there is still not enough to disable me so yeah feeling a lil that some of the things i had to do the past year were a waste of time and yeah i cried a lot tonight i guess i just was not expecting it but i also think a lil part of me thought well i could happen so much for positive thinking...lol i am just so damn tired of doctors and psychologists and the whole 9 yards but i'll keep going just like everyone else sorry to ramble on i just needed to get it all out you guys are awesome ot sit hear and read through all my moaning and gripping anyways have a goodnight all love mandy

Oh Mandy.. you are SO worth us reading your words and TRYING to feel how sad YOU are I hope that you were able to get a good nite's rest.. Keep fighting hun.. and always keep posting. I know you must be emotionally drained.. I for one (ask Dan) am a procrastinator.. and put stuff off.. Thank goodness you aren't.. you are a DO'ER. You just need a boost of moral support of hugs and kisses to get you motivated to do some more fightin'

oh boy i tell ya i am a procrastinator too and yeah i am extremely drained emotionally sometimes its just too much but then i get on here and you sya the things you say to me and i cant help but smile and sometimes cry(for a good reason) as for the rest i cant sleep for some reason its been bad the last couple of weeks i think i am going to talk to the doc i have to go see a new one across town anyways i appreciate all your kind loving words rhonda i love you already i hope one day we get ot meet ya mandy

and you reach back to me.. and that puts a smile to my face too love you back.. and it will be AWESOME to meet someday PERHAPS when you *** to OHIO now... do you have sleep apnea.. If you don't know.. get thee to a doctor.. afterall it will be one more thing to add to your disability for SSI approval just talked to Dan.. he said he didn't sleep to good either.. woke up a couple times and started *thinking*. I woke up HOT.. NOT Hawt.. but HOT.. I had the electric heater going and was too lazy to get up and turn it off. But Kate *the cat* loves it.. she stretches out in front of it..

that would rock yeah i have severe sleep apnea and have been having breathing issues lately i am headed that way it is hot here for me tonight and we have a fan on i think it is just everything is building up i am probably headed for another episode again which sucks cause it means the hospital so i am fighting to keep that away so but i'll over come it sounds like my cat that died earlier this yar she was the same way

Hi there. I am not all that familiar with your struggle with SSI but I wanted to tell you not to give up!!!!! My Father fought for disability. He is a purple heart vietnam veteran and has more things wrong with him than right. They would say he was 89% disabled.. well,. that made him "healthy" (in their eyes) enough to technically hold a job but he COULDNT in reality. So, he fought it.. and it took a long time but he is finally where he needs to be .. Hang in there. Beckie

thanks beckie i appreicate it and i hope ur dad is getting better i will keep up

i am one of the very few people that were approved on the first application. EVERYONE i talked to told me that the normal process is get denied twice and then pay a law firm to fill out your application and then you will be approved. I'm not sure why it works that way, i've got friends with much worse disabilities than mine who were denied a few times. Don't give up. The good news is they will grandfather in your SSI so you'll get a big lump sum at first that will help pay your legal fees. SSI only pays for one year but if your disability began more than a year ago it means you will get a payment at first for one year's worth and then be put on regular SSDI.

Mandy, So sorry you received the denial after working so hard on the application process. I have heard of many people that truly should qualify for SSI due to their physical challenges and get declined. It just doesn't seem fair. You hang in there, Ron