So tired I cannot sleep

I am laying in bed tonight and I should be asleep but life's activities are running rampant through my mind. Why do we do this to ourselves? How does life get so crazy that we run from one thing to another taking care of everyone but ourself? How is it that we spend so much time on things that shouldn't matter and so little time on the important parts of life? Time is going by and so many things are left to do in this lifetime. Many things that were important are not so anymore. In a society where the more you get the better your respected by others is no longer the ideal I chase. I want the simple life. Give me back the little town I grew up in with one traffic light and farm market roads. A back porch overlooking a pond with a glass of iced tea in my hand and the quietness rarely found in the big city. Well I better go to sleep as the big city waits for me in the morrow and the small town slow me down lifestyle will have to wait for another day. Thanks to each of you for letting me virtually ramble from the innermost regions of my mind. Ron

my friend ron i am right there with you so much focus on such unimportant things now a days whats bad is i am only just about to turn 22 and can see this the world we live in is so chaotic and over done its unbelievable i find myself longing to live in a town where people actually know you and that is not considered a go thru kinda town ya know dont get me wrong vegas is my home but i long for the same thing you speak of one day im sure for now vegas is where i stay and hopefully keep some piece of the small town life in sight i know i really dont wanna raise the kids i will someday have here if i can avoid it well anyways ttyl mandy

I know some people... and they advise me to "keep it simple".. and it seems to work for many. You do know that you have made this statement many times in posts before. So I believe it is something that you truly would like and it is a dream/goal that is very achieveable, if both you and Sas want it. As I told Kellee in a post yesterday.. I am my biggest obsticale when it comes to reaching goals/dreams. If you truly choose to make your life *simplier* ... what would you change today to do so? Have a good day

Yes it is a constant desire of mine to go back to my small town roots. And now I have Cathy in my life and she has small town roots as well. Being one of four kids, I was the only one that set out and found my way to the big city. My brother and 2 sisters all live back in Oklahoma. Keith and Kathy back in my home town and Pam in Ardmore, off Interstate 35. Having made stops in San Francisco, Chicago, Dallas and others along the way I know all to well about the fast paced craziness that goes with Urban traffic, long lines and the constant noise we encounter at all times of the day and night. It isn't that I would change my decisions to accomplish a career in the business world and heaven knows I have been fortunate to have experienced traveling the US to places that most do not see in their life time. However I have the same feeling that many get as they age and want to go back to their roots. It isn't that I romanticize small town living it just is the need to bring some sanity to my existence. Of course Cathy is fine with the small town thing as long as it is within 40 to 60 miles of a Big City where she can go shopping. There is one challenge of living in a small town, finding a job that will pay your bills. I cannot seem to find that 6 figure job in the Staunton Times Employment Section. Ron

Truckee California population, oh I don't know but, my graduating class was less than 50. Things were simple, life was good. We were poorer than poor but oh so rich! All my friends had brand new enduro motorcycles, I had a Yamaha 80 street bike that was older than old that my Dad got for painting a guys car. My friends used to laugh at me when I jumped it and stuff but I always laughed with them cause I knew they weren't being mean, the bike was funny lookin but it got me around. Funny thing is I honestly had no idea how very poor we were. Man we were happy then. I have finally found that happiness again with Deb and the boys. Funny thing is we spent all day yesterday on motorcycles riding in the desert. What a blast! The boys all had big ole grins on there faces and Deb was possitively glowing. Those are the times I live for. When everyone in my world is happy. I think this is why we are in the rat race Ron. I think it's a fine line to walk "just keeping it simple". I personally have found lately that getting back in touch with God helps me stay grounded. It's like my soul needs the resting place. I swear I read your post and could have sworn ya tapped into my brain! My heart is out to ya bud. Hugs, Sparky