relief..

I lived.. believe it or not.. I went and got there early.. like half hour early and met a few of the residents and introduced myself.. they were nice.. sweet... normal. I told them this was my 1st lead.. one guy asked if I wanted to go outside to have a cigg.. and I said I quit that habit too after the drinking. And then they all left the room and left me there alone.. and I reflected.. on how "normal" they are.. and why I was there. Anywho.. I spoke.. and my fear of voice cracking didn't happen.. and I did last until about 6:50ish.. and I don't think I had any nervous *tics* going on.. so overall okay lead. Afterwards.. I did see a guy there that I know from my *home bar*.. we spoke and I told him when he gets out and if he needs a ride to a meeting to give me a call. On my ride to The Promises.. for another AA to listen to a lead.. I thought of somethings that I forgot to mention... and then other things that I wish I would have elaborated more on.. like the Promises filled for me since AA. Perhaps.. next time Listened to a man give a lead and he was AWESOME.. I wish my leads could be like that.. is what I'm thinking.. but then that would mean .. a few felonies.. prison.. multiple prison.. and an encounter with a farm animal at some point in my life.. just not sure if it's worth all that.. but then whatever it takes to get there.. BUT.. he was awesome.. funny.. and GOD love him he's working it now!! anywho.. thanks so much for YOUR posts/PM's of encouragement and well wishes and others for putting up with my anxiety over it all

I TRULY do wish I could have been there to have listened to your Lead. I don't know how to express this without sounding condescending, but I am so very proud of you! It takes guts to decide one day to walk away from something that has a hold of you and to bring a change in yourself that makes an impact on how you live the rest of your life. Brilliant Hugz, Ron

AWESOME!!!!!!! Whoooooooo-hoooooo....I wasn't expecting to hear this till the morning...I am sooo glad that all went well. I knew it would. You are da bomb!!! Big Hugs, Jen

way to go Rhonda! you rock! and remember, those speakers aren't great because they have more frightening war stories, it's because they have more practice and experience at speaking. over time they become natural story tellers. Everybody has their own story and there will be people *****late to some more than others. Your story serves a purpose. People who haven't been to prison and had illicit encounters with farm animals will probably find it easier to relate to you and get more hope and encouragement from your journey!

nice job girlfriend.......the worse the war stories are isnt always better...its speaking from the HEART........and that you do daily...!! Darlene

So glad to hear that things went well. You should be proud of your journey and sharing it with others is truly a way to let others know that they too can travel the path you've taken. You never know how something you've said or done might touch someone and make a difference in their life. I'm sure your group is grateful for what you gave them last night. Hugs to you!

I am proud of you Rhonda!! I am so glad it went well for you.. I looked at the clock last night and thought of you while you must have been in the middle of it. The first one is the hardest.. you will be a pro at it before you know it and helping people will help you. Beckie

HOOORAY!!!

YOU GO GIRLIE!!! You are such an inspiration to all of us!!!