board forgive me..

I have sinned.. i ate two cupcakes today.. one for pre-breakfast snack and one for lunch and they were sinfully delicious..chocolate with chocolate icing and candy confetti sprinkles on top it's Michelle's 40th birthday.. and Lyn made 'em and I didn't want to hurt her feelings for nothing.. so i ate 'em now I feel fat.. and Maria's aunt is here.. and she was here last month.. and she's came early this month.. woe is me *hand on forehead*

And you didn't dump? I would be hugging the D.

NO i don't dump much.. i get sleepy tho i appear to only hug the toilet when I eat chicken at times..

I have told myself, if I have to have something sweet I head to those 25cent candy machines and get a handful of m&m's...that usally does it...but as for the cupcakes...man I would be dying...cookies I am fine with, but anything in the cake world I die...almost instant dump...I have two stages of dumping..the instant, or the dreaded and much worse, time release dump...after about 15 mins I start sweating, then comes the shaking and weakness, then I just want to die, one time I just laid on the middle of the floor for 15 mins praying I would just die...I swear I saw a white light to cake....especially carrot cake (which happens to be my fav..mmm cream cheese icing) I got myself all hyped up last night to go running this morning and when the alarm went off at 5:30am, I just got up and changed it to 6:15 and closed my eyes again...I gave the running the big FU....

ummmm.. cream cheese icing.. *eyes glazing over*.. ummmm glazeeeee.. okay.. Now I'm eating a piece of tilapia fish.. I need something of substance.. cupcakes only go so far.. at Jay and Mel's wedding I had chicken with apricot brandy sauce.. I think the sauce didn't agree with me.. I got sooo full sooo quick with the chicken and then I hurted I went to the restroom to feel better.. and when I returned.. there was this HUGH chocolate dessert on my plate with whipcream and raspberry on top.. ummmm.. I took some bites of it.. and it was like mouuse(sp) with hard chocolate shell.. it's been a naughty weekend.. altho I really only ate about a 1/3 of it.. I was just in misery from eating... but it was all sinfully delicious.. poppa then walked and toured the Rock and Roll exhibits.. I had to walk off what I ate!! the only other exercise I got was...walking when shoppin

yeah, the new group I am in at work, has parties all the time. They have parties to celebrate having parties They had cake and a buffet style lunch and one women made a comment my plate looked bare...I said, "Yeah I'm working on my hourglass figure" she laughed and it changed the subject. Ironically they are all skinny...I need to be careful here.. I get all nervous when they go to group lunches, cause sometimes they do chinese buffets...1) I am a grazer not a buffet eater, I sucked at buffets preop 2) as much as I love chinese food, It kills my new stomach, so I already made up a lame excuse once why i can't go. I guess next time I go I can target the chicken and broccoli and live off that. So far today I've had cheese (breakfast), a piece of chicken, some chilli, and a protein bar, if I can hold strong till tonight and just do a protein shake I'll be good to go...

I love chinese but fight off eating at their buffets too lately.. I just learned it's a waste of my money.. I eat just a little.. and get really full and I can't sneak enuff chinese cookies in my purse to make up the cost.. and I get very.. very sleepy as soon as I eat chinese.. and don't like that. I don't mind paying full price at restuarants.. but like the ones were I at least get a go box for my next meal at home work here is bad altho the girls are gaining weight.. so lately they are dieting too.. it was just bad today cuz Michelle's birthday..

I want a cupcake! Share!

i just had another.. and now I'm PUKING and my bellie is killing me.. go figure.. one day I'm good.. and the next day DEATH.. *handing Katie-Bug the last cupcake*