will i ever sleep again?

this is ridiculous. another night of insomnia. another resteril that's not working. my brain will not shut the f*ck up and let me sleep. it's just yack yack yack like an internal dialog. i hope this ends after the wedding and i can relax. tomorrow we leave for Roaming Shores to stay at a private lake house and chill for a few days before blowing into Cleveland on friday to prepare for the wedding. We picked up the PA system tonight and i played around with it running my music off the computer, it's gonna be a breeze and we're gonna have the absolute best wedding music EVER. They should broadcast it on the radio. Tomorrow Mel picks up her dress, we get our manicures and pedicures (i'm SUCH a metrosexual now!) and then i pick up the rental 2007 Mustang and we're gone. ok, i'm rambling. it's what happens when i take sleeping pills and stay awake. sorry. i'm such a lucky man.

Well, you for sure dont wanna sleep on your wedding night.

that's the downside to having lived together for over a year, yes our wedding night will be special, but we don't have that pressure built up that needs to be released in one night, lol. The main difference is that what we do will now be legal! well depending on Ohio laws, probably not everything!

plus i'm 43 years old and will be dancing and drinking, i'll probably fall asleep in the car on the way back to the hotel!

nope.....i maybe slept 90 minutes last night...my first night without my husband....thinking about work, etc.....and actually running through the wedding in my head AGAIN....it was crazy...... our wedding night was great....people actually left the reception fairly early which was fine with us but by the time we left we were starving and could not find anything open except mcdonalds....it was great....we went through drive through to mcdonalds in our wedding attire and sat in bed and ate our nuggets and cheeseburger in bed along with some doritos....i had been so good eating and wanted to splurge.....also had my cute teal shorts and pink tank top on after getting all of these beautiful negligees (sp) to wear...it was priceless....but to your point...all that mattered was we were legal now....we had been married to each other in our heart for a lot longer.......have fun mel and jay.....be safe and have fun..... hugs, mrs nate

do we need anything "special" to get into the hall that day.. if we get there early to look around before the wedding?? like a copy of the invitation... or secret password I TOLD YOU YOU WERE A METROSEXUAL.. BUT NOOOOOOO... YOU WOULDN'T LISTEN TO ME can't wait for the weekend.. CHEERS

Hmm.... Zanax? Breath Bud breath! It will be over soon. Don't worry you will eventually collapse out of sheer exhaustion. You're gonna make it. Have ya thought of some kind of physical exercise? That always helps my brain process and calm down. Walking did the trick for me. Hang in there my friend. Spark

" i'm such a lucky man " Yes you are, as am I . I'm also a sleepy man... There are a thousand different conversations going on in my head at any one time, or so it seems. Evereything from baby names to what we're gonna do with Martinas house . I have an hour commute, each way, to work every day and do most of my freak out / anxiety attack sessions in the car, with the music turned up loud. The bad news is, I've heard it never goes away, the good news is, we'll be going thru it with the women we love Good luck with the wedding, I should be proposing just about the time you and Mel are jumping over the broom. What's on the play list ? BTW, ever heard " Against Me " ? I've been hearing about them, bu I've never heard them.