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So..umm like can anyone join in here?? Its taken me awhile to get up to speed on things, and yet, I am still in the dark for most. Rhonda, as you know about Dan, and still have you both in my prayers. Just not so sure what happened with the 'singles' board and why I had to hunt you all down. ?? Ive tried to keep up with the posts, but the last few weeks have not been good for me or my family. My mom and I are about to move my brother into hospice so he can have a dignified ending to his all-to-short life. My mom is having a terrible time with all of this. Me, not much better. I also got laid off on April 30th, then started a new job 2 weeks later. The SOB was was a real pig, and the day that I told him he didnt need to humiliate me, he decided to fire me. So, once again I am unemployed. However, as they say, timing is everything and somehow with all that is going on with my brother its seems it is right. Given all that has happened this year, I am amazed that I am a much stronger person than I ever gave myself credit for. Through all of this, I have been alcohol free and feeling so much better. I finally did get my iron infusion, and that has made a world of difference! Anyway, just wanted to let you all know that I found you, and while I may not post much, I do think of you all as my support system and just wanted to say thanks and that I am grateful for you all. I didnt mean to be a downer.. just kind of needed to let that all out. Hugs, kisses, and my prayers go out to you all. Erica

Evening My soul see-ster thank you for thinking of Dan and I when you and your family are struggling.. your brother will be in my prayers for a easy and painless transition home.. and to you and your mother the ones left heavy hearted.. sorry about the job hun.. appears you are much stronger than myself.. or the self I use to be.. the time I was once fired I was also going thru a divorce and had a mini-breakdown.. but today.. after several years of maturing.. I find myself to be a very strong woman too and I'm proud of that also.. I'm still sober since 11/17/06 and smokefree since couple months.. I've been dealing with the Dan "situation" and holding my own there too.. boy I can be strong when I have to and my feelings are involved.. I don't think I realized that about myself.. I went to a family support and Alanon meeting this evening.. and saw Dan and we talked. Again no promises.. I just want him to be on HIS PATH of recovery.. he tries to think so far down the road.. wondering if there is a chance with us and all. I tell him.. I cannot tell him yes or no.. that he needs to find his sobriety.. a job and make friends.. I told him he has to GET A LIFE.. as I live mine. He should not even make that a consideration.. he needs to do this for HIM.. After we talked on the phone about it.. he discussed with a counselor there.. and he thought that he made a break thru I hope so.. but I won't go by his words.. it will have to be by his actions.. and only time will tell. well.. I must get myself to bed.. each nite I tell myself I'll go to bed early.. only to get on this computer and not go 'til after my bedtime. So goodnite Erica.. and I'm soo happy you found us.. Please keep us updated on your brother.. I will be think of YOU.

Hi Erica! Glad you found us. I have you and your family in my prayers. You all have been through so much this year. (((HUGS))) I am here for you if you ever need to talk.... Love and Hugs Julie

Hi Erica I'm glad you found us. I have found that the power of prayer helps us through so much so I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers and that God gives your heart peace as you go through this difficult time. Hugs. Barb

Erica- I'll be thinkin' of you. Congrats on alchy free! Jobs? F the pig. You are not a downer by any means. That's what we are here for!!

Erica, Your message really made me understand how fortunate I am, and for that I want to personally thank you. Sometimes I get lost in my battle with depression, and feeling sorry for myself. It is those times I choose to fade away, and do what "I do best"....become invisible..... When I get like this, I don't talk to anyone, not even my own family (Mom, Dad & Sweet teenage son) Sometimes, I can see their fear and desperation on their face, trying to gauge how "far" I've got into that black place....and if I will be able to come back to them.... I never talk about this part of my life, because I view it as my "weakness" or my "addiction" and I hate it about me. GOSH, Just typing this makes me cry ..... BUT, I wanted to tell you that my life is Good, and I should remember that. I am a WLS success story, my dad's surgery was a great success, my son is happy and healthy and a well adjusted teenager, my sweet mother is finally getting her knee replacement surgery, so I should STOP FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF. I pray for your brother, Mom and especially yourself. Please come and post to us anytime you feel like it. I am asking God to show mercy on you and your family and that the next great job is just around the next corner for you. Sherr

Even if you can't talk to family or a person face to face... sometimes it's good just to come here and post your little heart out.. that's what I do.. and it helps.. and there ARE others on the other side reading.. that really do care, support and love YOU

Well, glad you found us! Some of us are still posting on both, but this has been a lot calmer and peaceful. I have noticed there are a few new people on the singles board and are asking about men and putting themselves out there to meet them. Who knows...I just didn't want to lose touch with all of the people that I've talked with on this board; married, involved, single, whatever. We're here to support and care about each other. With that, Erica I am so sorry about the issues you are dealing with at this time in life. I applaud you for being so strong and resisting old addictions. With the little I know about hospice, your brother should be far more comfortable and receive much more personal care and respect. I don't have siblings, so I just can't have the knowledge of losing one. I do know of losing a parent, so if you need to vent, cry, scream, feel free to email me. Jobs are a dime a dozen. Your "life plan" has not come through yet, but it will and will be better than you dreamed it could be. Stay strong until the right career comes to you. Usually when you get the right one, you will get several offers about the same time and get to choose. Sometimes the most money is not "the" job. When you become bombarded with those offers, be wise in your choice. You are not a downer. Stop that crap, now I say. Stop it! The other Liz in red mud hell