Something to think about

I had a Counsellling session today and we talked about the chicken and the egg thing as it relates to depression and anxiety. (which comes first?) I have been on MANY anti-depressants and am one week away from weening off of the latest one. I think instead of another anti-depressant, I am going to ask for and try an anti-anxiety medicine. I will be 2 years out on 10/10/05 and initiall lost from 330 to 253, I have now rebounded to 283 (some might be PMS fluid retention ) I have been thinking that maybe I am sabotaging myself and don't even realize it. I drink my water (most days) and I get my protein in (most days) and take my vitamins (always). The exercise is a little trickier as I have severe Osteo-arthritis and Fibromyalgia. And just recovering from knee surgery doesn't help much either. BUT, are those just really my way of sabatoging myself because I JUST KNOW I am going to fail at this too? Please, don't flame me, but any feedback would be appreciated. TIA! Elizabeth

Elizabeth, I don't know what to say. I read your profile and feel like you are not giving yourself enough credit. You are a very busy person and have a lot of serious stuff going on around you both with your family and your health. You are NOT a failure NOR a quiter. I certainly don't see that based on your profile. Why are you coming off your meds? I have panic/anxiety disorder. I have tried to stop taking them a couple of times but always go back to them. The crazy thing is, I am better with them. So why do I not want to take them? Anyway, check with your shrink and see what he/she says. If you don't have a shrink and your reg doctor is providing your meds, ask to see a shrink. That made all the difference for me. Anyway, I just had to respond to your post. I wish you all the best. Keep your chin up. And remember...."life is that dance we do in the space between making it happen and letting it happen....I love to dance" ....... I hope you do, too. Hugs, Sylvia

Hello from a fellow Iowan! I know exactly what you mean. I also take meds. for anxiety/panic disorder and depression. I was on Paxil CR, and now wonder if it significantly slowed my weight loss. My therapist says I am the only person she knows who took it very long due to weight gain. My pre-op weight was 331, RNY 6/1/04, and I am currently about 245. I am very disappointed in myself. I am glad to have lost what I have, and I never expected to be skinny, but I thought I would lose this much in the first 6 months! Exercise is difficult, hip bursitis, knee pain, and a huge panni that I had even before surgery. Like you, I almost always get enough protein, almost always get enough water, and always take my vitamins. I may not always eat the perfect foods, but I do OK. PMS is horrible, worse than ever in my life. My blood work in Aug. was perfect. Dr. just says 'see you in a year'. I too have wondered about the sabotaging.