Freaking out and feeling alone

I had my surgery in January 2010. I lost 100 pounds, and managed to keep it off for a while. But in the last 8 months or so, I think some of the weight is creeping back and it's scaring the crap out of me. I think some of it has to do with the fact that I'm dating someone seriously for the first time, and we've been together for about a year now, but it seems like we do a lot of activities revolving around food. He struggles with his weight as well and we're both emotional eaters.

Also, I moved 200 km away from where I initially had my surgery, so I haven't seen my surgeon in a while. I put off the last checkup because I was afraid to get on the scale and frankly, I'm embarassed and ashamed at failing at this. I feel alone and have no support. And being lonely...well, I know that's a recipe for disaster. I don't know how to get back on track. I really don't. It feels hopeless and I'm scared to death of gaining it all back.

200 km is a long way but that's like 2- 3 hours, right?  It might be the best spent trip you ever made.  Go back to the clinic before things continue. It will be easier to gert back on track with their help earlier rather than later.   

you can do it!

A lot of people say to go back to the basics. measure all your food, get all your protein and liquids, and take your vitamins. check into therapy for emotional eating. and maybe talk to your new significant other about your fears.

best of luck to you!

People typically lose the first year, maintain the second year and gain some the third year.  I think the hardest part of the 3rd year is adjusting to a more normal diet without going overboard.  How wonderful that you have a relationship.  Maybe you can try to get healthy together by introducing activities into your relationship.  Tri