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My name is Mary. I had gastric bypass in Oct of 2007. My weight was 576lb. My lowest weight after the surgery was 285lb. In october of 2011, my grandma died...and i just started eating. I have gotten back up to 340lb. I don't know what to do. I don't eat nearly like i did before my surgery...but chocolate/sweets don't make me sick anymore like they used to. I would rather DIE than go back to the way i used to be. I have TONS of excess skin and i feel like...i feel like i'm still like i used to be. No matter how much more weight i loose, i will still have this flabby skin hanging on my arms and legs. And no, my insurance will not cover surgery, and i wasn't approved for carecredit. I want to get back to 285, and lower. I still just don't know what to do. I'm ashamed to go see my surgeon...he will see the weight i've gained...and be dissapointed in me. Does anyone have any advice? I would greatly appreciate it...thank you.

Mary 

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Hi Mary,

Having set backs are always hard and does terrible things to our thoughts.  I don't think you have failed.  You just got off track.  Get into a good support group, see a nutritionist and maybe a counselor who specialises in eating issues.  If you are not exercising, at least walk.  This is a time when you need some support and it is out there. 

The skin issues are no fun.  I wish insurance company people could at least have a nightmare of weighing over 300 lbs, losing the weight and have to contend with all that skin.  Maybe then they would realize how aweful it is. 

I also think all of us should rally Washington to have laws changed to support weight loss surgery patients and their needs. Maybe we need to be more vocal.

Dont, give up on yourself.  Your an amazing person. Your still down 340 pounds that is still fixable. Your life is still better off than it was.   I think it is more important that you try and get Counseling.  As for your doctor or Surgeon.  Don,t worry about disappointing him.  Where was his follow- up care. Your Therapy.  How does a surgeon or doctor.  See a person who is  576 pounds and Basically killing themselves on a daily basis with food.  How can that doctor not  know that they are in Chonic and Emotional pain on a full time basis   Why not  get them into some kind treatment for Depression and Treatment for and eating disorder.  Instead ,  He made alot of money off of you.  By fixing your stomach instead of your mind.  You were basically Compulsively eating yourself to death.  I know.   I have been their myself.  Filling trapped.  You need  to stop worrying about what other people think. Your body is what is.  Dream and Hoping for something different a waste of your life.  You body is the one God gave you.  Hating will not help. Don,t waste your life thinking  about the weight you gained back Or the weight you never lost. Just forgive yourself and move on from this point on. Learn to live in the moment don't for this big miracle that will  happen the one day.   I will wake up one maically after surgery and my life will be perfect. I will waked and be transform into a supermodel one day..  I waste a lot of my life dreaming about it. Even praying  about it.  What need to be fixed was your way of thinking.  Your whole way of life.   The way you think about your food, treat food, cook food, How your  family has with dealed with your food issues past and present.  I hear the pain of your letter.  Worrying about money it  will not help you.  It is about healing your body and soul.  You can only do that one day at a time.