NOT FAILED BUT DISSAPOINTED IN MYSELF

HELLO ALL I AM NEW TO THIS FORUM I DO NOT BELIEVE MY RNY HAS FAILED I JUST START SEEIN OLD HABITS SNEAK UP ON ME AND ITS SCARY. I EAT WHEN IM BORED AND I CAN EATS COOKIES AND SWEETS AND DONT DUMP AND IM PISSED. THE ONLY THING I DUMP ON IS ICE CREAM OR MILK. IVE BEEN THRU AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER AND GOTTA GET MY SELF OUT OF IT. IM ONLY HUMAN IF THINGS ARENT GOING GOOD IN MY LIFE I GET SADDEN AND DONT CARE, HAD A FIALED RELATIONSHIP WHERE I THOUGHT ENGAGEMENT WAS COMING, FINANCIAL AND ALMOST CAUGHT UP NO MOTIVATION AT ALL TO EXERCISE ENOUGHT I FEEL LIKE I FAILED MYSELF AND ITS TAKING A TILL ON ME I NOW IM NOT THE ONLY ONE. I HAVENT BEEN FEELING GOOD FOR WEEKS AND I KNOW ITS LACK OF ENOUGH EXERCISE AND DEPRESSION. I WAS DRINKING ABOUT 80 OUNCES OF WATER/CRYSELT HAD A ROUTINE DOWN PACKED BUT THEN GOT BORED WITH IT. AND NOW IM LUCKY FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS IF I GT 40 OUNCES IN. IM JUST OVERWELMED. I NEED TO DICEFER THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BOREDOM AND HEAD HUNGER CAUSE HEAD HUNGER IS KICKING MY ASS. SORRY TOI VENT I LOVE MY RNY AND AM BLESSED EVERY DAY FOR MY HEALTH AND THE CHANCE OF LIFE I JUST AM TRYING TO HARD TO GET OUT OF THIS RUNT ITS CONSUMING ME,

If you need to vent OH is the place to do it.  Look, we're both in our 'tweens'.  Not newbies, not vets, over the wow moments and nsv's.  Trying to incorporate this rny into the ups and downs of everyday life is a ***** 

Hang tough luv.  Remember what it took to get where you are today.  Remember all the reasons you never want to go back to where you were.  You can handle this.  Stay strong. 

thats what i keep telling myself make sure i get my priorites in order ty luv

Oh my hunnybunny, stop beating yourself up.  We just have to get our head out of our asses and get back to basics   You know I've gone thru the same thing since my slip and my separation and it's so easy to fall right back into bad habits.  Call me anytime you need to vent, I'm always here for you!

ty ma i know that im going back to basics started yest

Hi Catherine,
We had surgery around the same time and I can totally relate to how you are feeling. In the last 6 months I have put on 30 lbs from snacking, grazing lack of exercise, etc...  I am back to old habits and this is really messing me up.  I just recently started journaling what I am eating and how I feel when I am eating.  I am also an emotional eater so hopefully this method will help.  I also recently joined the gym so I just need to get back into going in the morning.  We can get through this and I am here for you if you need to talk.
Toni 

well i finally stopped snacking at night thank god

I too feel the same way...2 yrs to the day and never got to my goal weight very depressed and on meds but not sure if they are the right ones...have to go to drs but ashamed that i have gained 15 lbs back.. have a candy addiction and very hard to give it up because it dont make me sick so old behaviors have came back. have alot of pain with back problems and have gotton worse and nothing the drs can do but give me pain meds. even tried to go back to work but pain was to bad. I sometimes feel why I go though all of this when I can't even enjoy all of the things  that i have been wanting to do but cant because of the pain, not sorry i did it but wish i could excersise I think it would help.  thanks for letting me vent....

Thank you so much for your support and guidence....I know I was feeling sorry for myself...I need to realize just how blessed I am with family and freinds and especially my boyfreind....I have had some very rough patches to go through but I have seen worse days...your right I have to quit hidding my feelings in food and get back on track....again thanks for the pep talk freind....Kathy

look how close you are to goal! 
we still have to deal with the disappointments of life and we have to learn not to fix them with food.  Stop sabatouging yourself and get back on track.  Head hunger is when your stomach is full of protein and you still feel like eating.  Drink your liquids when this happens.  Wait the 45 min after eating to drink and 30 mins to eat after drinking to dry out your pouch.  Do the basics, walk a mile a day, not only for good health but it helps mental health to.
I truly wish you the best, please get back on track.  Climb out of that mindset and I know you can do it!